My life...why cant you understand?
Why can't people understand the conditions that I have to live under? I live with a step dad. Who always thinks he's right. Who thinks I do everything wrong and who grew up not questioning anything. Now as I grow up and I get told no or something is taken away understand that I am not allowed to question. Sometimes you just have to deal with what happens. In my house questioning isn't allowed, why can't you just understand? Under this roof I have to be different. The rules in my house are different from yours, excluding Marcus) I don't have it as easy. You see your dad every day. I see mine once a month if I'm lucky. Your dad comes and sees you and your best. Mine never gets to see it. I call him and he doesn't call back. I ask him to come watch me play, yet he doesn't show up. Can't you understand the pain I go through? I have to live under a life of always obeying and never asking why just to stay out of the wrath of an angry abused person. Otherwise the arm comes the other way and I'm left on the other end of it. That's why I don't question. In fear of being the abused, forced to leave my house and my life. Can't you just understand? I have to live with my step brother. Day in and day out of the constant name calling and constant annoying. I just want to make my life easier and try to avoid him. Can't you see? Are you starting to put the picture together? The less I'm noticed the better my life is on the outside, yet on the inside I want to be noticed and I want to be someone to be proud of. Just take a second and try to understand my life...just once before you question again. I'm sorry that I angered you, but right now I'm torn up and I just needed to be alone. I'm sorry I blew up at you but I couldn't stand another second of the running around and yelling. And I know you're going to be talking about me, but please don't judge me before you can understand.
Anyways...on a lighter note...
Last night at our "softball game" we went to Culver's instead of playing because it was raining yet we had to drive over 100 miles anyways. But it was really fun. I also found out that we are going to try and keep the team we have now together for a long time. I'm am going to stay and do it, but I'm also sad that I won't get to play with Kelly, Suzi, and Sarah. I know everyone like hates them, but they were really nice to me and I got along with them fine. And of course I couldn't say that at the game. So yes I'm really excited we're keeping this team together though! I love everyone on it and now we are going to be together for liek 3 years! It will allow us to get so close. And I'm so excited because next year I'll be able to drive myself to practices and such so my mom won't be able to tell me I can't go to team stuff anymore. I wish I could live closer to everyone, don't get me wrong I love it in Oconomowoc but I also love my Firebird girls.
Anyways...on a lighter note...
Last night at our "softball game" we went to Culver's instead of playing because it was raining yet we had to drive over 100 miles anyways. But it was really fun. I also found out that we are going to try and keep the team we have now together for a long time. I'm am going to stay and do it, but I'm also sad that I won't get to play with Kelly, Suzi, and Sarah. I know everyone like hates them, but they were really nice to me and I got along with them fine. And of course I couldn't say that at the game. So yes I'm really excited we're keeping this team together though! I love everyone on it and now we are going to be together for liek 3 years! It will allow us to get so close. And I'm so excited because next year I'll be able to drive myself to practices and such so my mom won't be able to tell me I can't go to team stuff anymore. I wish I could live closer to everyone, don't get me wrong I love it in Oconomowoc but I also love my Firebird girls.