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i might be a little to hard on myself concerning my image. im just not satisified. it has really been bad lately and i dont know why. maybe because i am getting older.
my aunt told me today that it seems like i dont eat. which is totally not right i eat a lot, at least i think so. she also said how drastically i changed my eating habits. i just cut out all the junk i was eating. i dunno she just told me not to go to extremes. i was just a little thrown off i guess because i dont see any changes in myself to make her think that. hmm.
it is her last night in my house tonight. its really sad but at the same time she was saying how she really needs to get out of the basement. which i can totally understand. i am going to miss her being here. so we went out to grab a bite to eat today before paige's concert (which was the cutest thing ive seen in a long time) we had quite the conversation. she was saying that i dont talk enough about how i feel and i am really hard to read. i dunno i guess i do keep to myself a lot.
**i think i have a hard time showing how i feel because i am not affectionate in any way and i think i use sarcasm and humor to cover it. but its weird because i am very sensitve once u get past the sarcasm i just cant seem to show it. which i think how i grew up has a lot to do with it.
my aunt told me today that it seems like i dont eat. which is totally not right i eat a lot, at least i think so. she also said how drastically i changed my eating habits. i just cut out all the junk i was eating. i dunno she just told me not to go to extremes. i was just a little thrown off i guess because i dont see any changes in myself to make her think that. hmm.
it is her last night in my house tonight. its really sad but at the same time she was saying how she really needs to get out of the basement. which i can totally understand. i am going to miss her being here. so we went out to grab a bite to eat today before paige's concert (which was the cutest thing ive seen in a long time) we had quite the conversation. she was saying that i dont talk enough about how i feel and i am really hard to read. i dunno i guess i do keep to myself a lot.
**i think i have a hard time showing how i feel because i am not affectionate in any way and i think i use sarcasm and humor to cover it. but its weird because i am very sensitve once u get past the sarcasm i just cant seem to show it. which i think how i grew up has a lot to do with it.