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It has been a while.
The last time I updated finals were still going on. So I'll try to start from there.
I finished up my finals. All were easy enough. I got 5 A's in my classes which made me very happy. But that only raised my GPA around .05. I went through a year or so where I put zero effort into my classes and got a few B+'s and A-'s and it sucks knowing how easy it would have been to get straight A's with even some extra effort. Also for the class I hated this semester the grades were lol. It was a 50 person class and 2 people got A's, not a single person failed. Everyone else was between a C+ and an A-. Her grading really blew.
By the way sometime during the break I played poker with the usual people (but highlighted by Kimmie, Krissy, and Roy being there as well [more on this day later]). But sometime that night I switched over into the next phase of my life. Basically instead of counting how long I've been in school I'm now counting down (bad explanation but whatever). I can really feel the end. Thats why I'm upset about fucking around with past grades and whatnot.
After finals I sort of forget the order this all happens in.
One night we went to the pool hall for Billy's 21st birthday and I ended up spending a ton of money there on drinks. Like $40. And I ate a meal there. Then we went to IHOP and I ate again. The night started at about 9 and I was home and asleep before one. That night really, really sucked. I couldn't sleep because I felt so sick and I had a 2-3 hours in the middle of the night to think over some things. Realizations that didn't really hit to after the poker night (will still get to later).
Then Christmas came. I got some nice things. Lots of movies, some CDs, some other things, and wireless internet for my xbox 360 (important!). It was my first Christmas without my Grandma and it really sucked without her. It makes me angry these days, not at her, but at how other people suck and how you can't do anything in life most of the time and then when I could I didn't. Life is rough sometimes. Oh and holidays always just magnify how your life is going and when it's not going anywhere that sucks.
Family bought a treadmill with a TV. It's awesome.
Poker night was probably next. I concede I'm unable to interact with people like I'd like to. I'd like to be friendlier in person. Especially to people I haven't seen in months. But I was insulting to some, ignoring to others. The way I think of people is of their perfect selfs and no one is their perfect self. No wait that's a terrible explanation but I don't know how to word why I am why I am. Also I am shy at heart and I always revert back to the person I was when I first met people because hey they liked me enough to be friends with me then. Even though I have actually grown up and can sometimes even have whole conversations with people without being sarcastic or super quiet. I swear it's true even though this night I didn't really come close. Anyways blah blah blah, I suck and I apologize to everyone for suckiness. If people could watch a running dialog of what goes on in my head I think they'd have a blast.
Oh around this night I have a series of realizations. I don't think they are that interesting to anyone besides me but basically they were 'Hey, it's time to start to get your shit together because you need to be ready to get a job move out soon.'
New Year's I stayed at home for.
Yesterday night I Kenny, Alex, and me (and Matt for a while) played Call of Duty 4 online for 7 hours or so. It was sick and kind of degenerate. And then played more today. People are really good (like Alex). I got my ass kicked but wow it's tons of fun to play those games.
It was a relaxing break overall.
The last time I updated finals were still going on. So I'll try to start from there.
I finished up my finals. All were easy enough. I got 5 A's in my classes which made me very happy. But that only raised my GPA around .05. I went through a year or so where I put zero effort into my classes and got a few B+'s and A-'s and it sucks knowing how easy it would have been to get straight A's with even some extra effort. Also for the class I hated this semester the grades were lol. It was a 50 person class and 2 people got A's, not a single person failed. Everyone else was between a C+ and an A-. Her grading really blew.
By the way sometime during the break I played poker with the usual people (but highlighted by Kimmie, Krissy, and Roy being there as well [more on this day later]). But sometime that night I switched over into the next phase of my life. Basically instead of counting how long I've been in school I'm now counting down (bad explanation but whatever). I can really feel the end. Thats why I'm upset about fucking around with past grades and whatnot.
After finals I sort of forget the order this all happens in.
One night we went to the pool hall for Billy's 21st birthday and I ended up spending a ton of money there on drinks. Like $40. And I ate a meal there. Then we went to IHOP and I ate again. The night started at about 9 and I was home and asleep before one. That night really, really sucked. I couldn't sleep because I felt so sick and I had a 2-3 hours in the middle of the night to think over some things. Realizations that didn't really hit to after the poker night (will still get to later).
Then Christmas came. I got some nice things. Lots of movies, some CDs, some other things, and wireless internet for my xbox 360 (important!). It was my first Christmas without my Grandma and it really sucked without her. It makes me angry these days, not at her, but at how other people suck and how you can't do anything in life most of the time and then when I could I didn't. Life is rough sometimes. Oh and holidays always just magnify how your life is going and when it's not going anywhere that sucks.
Family bought a treadmill with a TV. It's awesome.
Poker night was probably next. I concede I'm unable to interact with people like I'd like to. I'd like to be friendlier in person. Especially to people I haven't seen in months. But I was insulting to some, ignoring to others. The way I think of people is of their perfect selfs and no one is their perfect self. No wait that's a terrible explanation but I don't know how to word why I am why I am. Also I am shy at heart and I always revert back to the person I was when I first met people because hey they liked me enough to be friends with me then. Even though I have actually grown up and can sometimes even have whole conversations with people without being sarcastic or super quiet. I swear it's true even though this night I didn't really come close. Anyways blah blah blah, I suck and I apologize to everyone for suckiness. If people could watch a running dialog of what goes on in my head I think they'd have a blast.
Oh around this night I have a series of realizations. I don't think they are that interesting to anyone besides me but basically they were 'Hey, it's time to start to get your shit together because you need to be ready to get a job move out soon.'
New Year's I stayed at home for.
Yesterday night I Kenny, Alex, and me (and Matt for a while) played Call of Duty 4 online for 7 hours or so. It was sick and kind of degenerate. And then played more today. People are really good (like Alex). I got my ass kicked but wow it's tons of fun to play those games.
It was a relaxing break overall.