whats going on here
sooooo yeah dont have much to say except things are getting confusing and im not sure what to do bout them, like do i follow what i think is right or do i just take a leap of faith and go for something noone would expect. life isnt as complicated as some people make it out to be, but at the same time if life was meant to be simple then it would be boring. i guess im just thining to much bout this guy and what if things do work out and what if this would be the best thing i ever did..then why am i so held back i mean honestly what is holding me back from making a decision that i know in my heart is what i want. ugh i dont know anymore what i should do or who is right nad who is wrong and everyone elses opinion matters to me to much in this matter that i cant make up m mind on my oen but its my choice entirely as do what happens, sometimes i wish i didnt care so much about everyone else in my life so that i wouldnt worry bout how things would effect them in the choices that i make.. uh its tooooo late for this rambling i need sleep, and i need to get these flowers in a vase..dont you just love gettin suprises from a boy two days in a row hmm somebody is tryin to make up my mind for me haha oh well not tonight i wont. peace im out