well.............
So I broke down today and I wrote a note to Matt... I don't understand why I love him the way that I do. He just does something to me anyways here is the note that I sent him:
so I have been thinking a lot lately... I do that sometimes and it hurts... Lol... Seriously though... all the letters and pictures that are made to last forever, they will be boxed up. The flowers from prom will eventually disappear without a trace, but what those mean to me can never be replaced. Old songs, like time, they go on and I guess I could learn to do the same. I wake up knowing that my arms will never be around you again. I tell myself it's meant to be this way but no matter how I try I can't change. I guess this all brings me to the point I am trying to reach. I can't unthink about you. I can't unfeel your touch. I can't unhear all the words or unsay all the things that used to mean so much. I wish I could unremember everything my heart's been through and I am finding out that it's impossible to do. It's no use no matter how hard I try I can't unlove you. I guess you don't feel the same way but this is how I feel. Matt, I miss you so much, I miss the US that we used to have, and all I can do is hope that you will eventually feel the way I feel. I guess this is all I have to say.
I love you
Christine
Yes I came up with some of that but most of that was from a song... Fuck I miss him so much and I wish I could just be with him. Well I got to go.
so I have been thinking a lot lately... I do that sometimes and it hurts... Lol... Seriously though... all the letters and pictures that are made to last forever, they will be boxed up. The flowers from prom will eventually disappear without a trace, but what those mean to me can never be replaced. Old songs, like time, they go on and I guess I could learn to do the same. I wake up knowing that my arms will never be around you again. I tell myself it's meant to be this way but no matter how I try I can't change. I guess this all brings me to the point I am trying to reach. I can't unthink about you. I can't unfeel your touch. I can't unhear all the words or unsay all the things that used to mean so much. I wish I could unremember everything my heart's been through and I am finding out that it's impossible to do. It's no use no matter how hard I try I can't unlove you. I guess you don't feel the same way but this is how I feel. Matt, I miss you so much, I miss the US that we used to have, and all I can do is hope that you will eventually feel the way I feel. I guess this is all I have to say.
I love you
Christine
Yes I came up with some of that but most of that was from a song... Fuck I miss him so much and I wish I could just be with him. Well I got to go.