Working Half Asleep
Good morning all you lovely people who do not exist but in my head and dreams... I hope you are all having a fabulous day! *smileS* I'm sure you are since you are a figment of my imagination, there is no way that you could possibly be having a bad day! Anyways... moving on... :)
I am at work today doing absolutely nothing since I have nothing to do... Lol, I don't know anymore... I just want to crawl in bed and never listen to anyone or do anything ever again. I just want to give up on trying to understand everyone... Okay, so I don't mean to make this my venting page... but, I am going to...
I'm really tired of never understanding why people think what they think about me. I just don't understand sometimes why people say the things they say about me. I'm a loving caring person... way too much for my own good... I let people walk all over me... but, I've never given them a reason to be rude and say things about me like they do... *sighs* Am I really that horrible of a person? Do I seriously have that many issues that people can't see the real me? *cries* I just want people to understand that I am a person too and that I need to feel loved and protected just like everyone else. *sighs* Anyways...
So, I've been dating a young man names Levi... he wants to marry me. I don't know why he does... I'm too crazy and outgoing for his personality. I love him, I do... but, hey! Like it has been stated numerous times... I've been "in love" with a lot of people. It's rediculous to think that maybe just maybe I could be happy in this one. I don't know if I want to marry him. I love him, I really do. He's my world right now. But I picture myself with someone who is more like me... out going... very social... very on the move and last minute with everything to make life exciting and new. I need someone who wants to be a youth leader and a sunday school teacher... I need someone to make sure that I always put my walk with God first before anything else. I just don't know... He is nothing like that. Although I do know that he will keep me in my walk with God, he will also never be what I feel I need him to be in church so that we as a couple can magnify the Lord. I don't know anymore... I really love him.. I want to marry him... but, I also don't want to be stuck in a life that I Can't get out of if he decides he wants to stay in Harrington... I don't know... I need to stop talking about it before Ijust get annoyed... anyways... be good! I love you all!!!
ToodleS!
I am at work today doing absolutely nothing since I have nothing to do... Lol, I don't know anymore... I just want to crawl in bed and never listen to anyone or do anything ever again. I just want to give up on trying to understand everyone... Okay, so I don't mean to make this my venting page... but, I am going to...
I'm really tired of never understanding why people think what they think about me. I just don't understand sometimes why people say the things they say about me. I'm a loving caring person... way too much for my own good... I let people walk all over me... but, I've never given them a reason to be rude and say things about me like they do... *sighs* Am I really that horrible of a person? Do I seriously have that many issues that people can't see the real me? *cries* I just want people to understand that I am a person too and that I need to feel loved and protected just like everyone else. *sighs* Anyways...
So, I've been dating a young man names Levi... he wants to marry me. I don't know why he does... I'm too crazy and outgoing for his personality. I love him, I do... but, hey! Like it has been stated numerous times... I've been "in love" with a lot of people. It's rediculous to think that maybe just maybe I could be happy in this one. I don't know if I want to marry him. I love him, I really do. He's my world right now. But I picture myself with someone who is more like me... out going... very social... very on the move and last minute with everything to make life exciting and new. I need someone who wants to be a youth leader and a sunday school teacher... I need someone to make sure that I always put my walk with God first before anything else. I just don't know... He is nothing like that. Although I do know that he will keep me in my walk with God, he will also never be what I feel I need him to be in church so that we as a couple can magnify the Lord. I don't know anymore... I really love him.. I want to marry him... but, I also don't want to be stuck in a life that I Can't get out of if he decides he wants to stay in Harrington... I don't know... I need to stop talking about it before Ijust get annoyed... anyways... be good! I love you all!!!
ToodleS!