Long day.
Had a kick ass day at work today. Made probably $200. Then I helped decorate the store for Christmas. It was so much fun, we still have a lot of work to do but we have so many creative people and such great ideas that we might have a chance at winning this thing. Even if we don't win atleast the store looks rockin.
David is going to teach me how to drive a stick on Wednesday after work. If I can do it ok I'm buying his car on Thursday. Atleast I will have a car to last me through the winter and when i get my tax return I will have enough money to put a fatty down payment on a brand new car. That way I can build my credit and then get a fatty condo.
I hate not having a car. I feel like such a bum depending on everyone else for rides. Like I am sixteen again or something. I am used to giving everyone rides, not getting them from everyone else. But I guess you give a little you get a little. Glad my friends are true enough to help me when I need it.
I am taking Aiden to get a haircut tomorrow. I wanted to take him to get his ears pierced too, but Ryan thinks that he will try and rip it out because he is too young. I can't do it if Ryan doesn't think it's a good idea yet. I know I would be pissed if he went behind my back and did something I asked him not to do.
I spent the night at his house on Friday night. I called to talk to him and he told me to come over at two. So, I set my alarm on my phone for two, called a cab and went over there. I was going to leave at like 4 but he asked me to stay the night with him. I stayed until eight in the morning. Now he is accusing me of "taking advantage" of him when he was drunk. I didn't even realize how drunk he was until he literally passed out and started snoring loud as hell and that was after the fact. I don't think it constitutes as "taking advantage." He did the same shit last week on Aiden's birthday sober as hell. He is just calling it that because now his friends know I was there because Chris saw me. Whatever. Ryan loves me and he knows it. He just takes a lot of shit from his friends and hates to hear their bitching and them poking fun at him.
I don't really care what happens, I miss him a lot some days but other days I come to the realization that... things in life happen for a reason and if me and Ryan are meant to be we will eventually be, I just have to let life take it's own course and see where I end up. I just have to go with the flow. All I really want as of right now is to be able to spend the holidays with my son. To spend them with Ryan would be a fantastic bonus but to spend them with Aiden would be fine just as well. Maybe the happy family I always dreamed of is Aiden and I, not all three of us. I just want to have a Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year too. LoL.
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David is going to teach me how to drive a stick on Wednesday after work. If I can do it ok I'm buying his car on Thursday. Atleast I will have a car to last me through the winter and when i get my tax return I will have enough money to put a fatty down payment on a brand new car. That way I can build my credit and then get a fatty condo.
I hate not having a car. I feel like such a bum depending on everyone else for rides. Like I am sixteen again or something. I am used to giving everyone rides, not getting them from everyone else. But I guess you give a little you get a little. Glad my friends are true enough to help me when I need it.
I am taking Aiden to get a haircut tomorrow. I wanted to take him to get his ears pierced too, but Ryan thinks that he will try and rip it out because he is too young. I can't do it if Ryan doesn't think it's a good idea yet. I know I would be pissed if he went behind my back and did something I asked him not to do.
I spent the night at his house on Friday night. I called to talk to him and he told me to come over at two. So, I set my alarm on my phone for two, called a cab and went over there. I was going to leave at like 4 but he asked me to stay the night with him. I stayed until eight in the morning. Now he is accusing me of "taking advantage" of him when he was drunk. I didn't even realize how drunk he was until he literally passed out and started snoring loud as hell and that was after the fact. I don't think it constitutes as "taking advantage." He did the same shit last week on Aiden's birthday sober as hell. He is just calling it that because now his friends know I was there because Chris saw me. Whatever. Ryan loves me and he knows it. He just takes a lot of shit from his friends and hates to hear their bitching and them poking fun at him.
I don't really care what happens, I miss him a lot some days but other days I come to the realization that... things in life happen for a reason and if me and Ryan are meant to be we will eventually be, I just have to let life take it's own course and see where I end up. I just have to go with the flow. All I really want as of right now is to be able to spend the holidays with my son. To spend them with Ryan would be a fantastic bonus but to spend them with Aiden would be fine just as well. Maybe the happy family I always dreamed of is Aiden and I, not all three of us. I just want to have a Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year too. LoL.
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