another evil night......
I decided in all my drunkiness and fuckedupness not too post commentary last nite probaly a good idea. I miss people being normal and not all of us being so drunk and fucked up all the time. I watch us all destroy ourselves in different ways---self destructiveness seems to be our common bond that ties us all together. We ALLLL do it......sex,drugs,abuse,lies,cheating,eating,being whipped,hopelessly in love,trying to convince yourself your in love when all it is is comfort,holding grudges,having grudges for no earthly idea, but never-the-less it keeps spinning and circling like a god damn cyclone sucking us all in. I admit i have been a little harsh but i can't sugarcoat everything all the time. It sucks. Sometimes people don't understand that things can be from a place of love and friendship,,,,and FUCK YOU FOR NOT UNDERSATNDING! Why are people so self-centered thinking that it is about them all the time----NEWS FLASH---it's not!
So we all went out for Ben-ha-mean's b-day! whooohoo! I still had fun! Some people were missed!
To the one I miss........
Its a long night again
slipping into the blackness is easy
staying unnoticed within my own hell
trying to remember the details
the image of your face
your smile
they are becoming faded
washed out
clinging onto memories
holding back tears
i realize i cant remember
remember what your voice sounds like anymore
i dont want to lose it
my mind is swirling
like a hurricane in my brain
fighting off the darkness
but it keeps creeping in
lapping at my memories
like waves against the shore
slowly taking pieces away each time
its a battle i can not fight
too tired to try
too broken down with despair
i decide to let the darkness in
and let go of you.
Im sorry rye bread, i do miss you terribly but i fucked up and so did you and now it will never be the same maybe in another life when we are both cats.
So we all went out for Ben-ha-mean's b-day! whooohoo! I still had fun! Some people were missed!
To the one I miss........
Its a long night again
slipping into the blackness is easy
staying unnoticed within my own hell
trying to remember the details
the image of your face
your smile
they are becoming faded
washed out
clinging onto memories
holding back tears
i realize i cant remember
remember what your voice sounds like anymore
i dont want to lose it
my mind is swirling
like a hurricane in my brain
fighting off the darkness
but it keeps creeping in
lapping at my memories
like waves against the shore
slowly taking pieces away each time
its a battle i can not fight
too tired to try
too broken down with despair
i decide to let the darkness in
and let go of you.
Im sorry rye bread, i do miss you terribly but i fucked up and so did you and now it will never be the same maybe in another life when we are both cats.