everything will be okay
I'm almost positive that what makes the situation worse is me dwelling over it and then taking my stress about it and other things in life, out on him. I think that this really is just a bump in the road and if we can make it past this then we can make it all the way. I really hope that he realizes how much he means to me and how much I think we need each other. I really don't think that anyone else could understand me like he does. Nobody else could stand me like he does. He understands that sometimes I need to cry and he knows that even though I might get mad because what I want to hear is that it will be okay, I need to hear the real side of things, or ill just keep going through lala land pushing off issues that I need to address. I know there are plenty of fish in the sea, I really do, but I know that I do not want anyone else. I know that even if one day it ended between me and him I'd compare everyone after him to what could have been, and that. I might not ever be able to be truly happy with someone else cuz hed leave a hole in my heart. I know ppl say I can't know these things but I really think I know what I'm talking about when I am saying these things about him he completely knocked me down. I'm ridiculously in love with this man. It goes beyond physical. It goes beyond emotional. It goes beyond any description you've ever read in a book, seen in a movie, heard in a song. The connection I have with him is indescribable. Its one of those, I'm supposed to be with you feelings. I never felt like this with anyone else, I could be angrier at him than I have ever been in my life and my heart still beats faster and harder when he walks in the room. I'm floored by his presence. If that's not love... What is it? Its not like he's the air I breathe. I could live without him, but I don't want to. I could die fighting with him and I wouldn't want it any other way.