Im Trying
I really, really want to move.
Holliston is just not the place for me.
I'll feel happy for a couple of moments;
certain ppl do make me smile.
But not enough for me to feel like I belong.
And I thought I did, last year.
But maybe I was just trying to believe that I really was.
Maybe I was fooled by my own hope.
I don't know.
Anyone that thinks this is BS,
and that all I want is "attention",
then stop reading,
because this is how I honestly feel.
All those "good moods" are efforts
in which I try really hard to be happy.
Because I hate being sad.
It's just not me.
At all.
I guess no one really knows how I feel.
But that is my own fault.
I'm just not as open as I thought I was.
And if you must know
It really doesnt take much to make me happy.
A little note, a simple hey...
Small things like that.
I'm not hard to please.
That is why you could say I get overexcited for things sometimes
Because I really haven't gotten that feeling in Holliston.
Rarely, anyway.
And I can't say my life sucks.
Because it doesnt: I have too many good things in my life.
It's just Holliston.
It makes me feel blue.
And certain "friends"...make me feel blue.
I try, I honestly TRY so HARD.
I don't understand it.
And every single day, I literally think to myself:
"Today is a new day."
But it goes awry.
Where did my REAL good mood go??
I wonder
Holliston is just not the place for me.
I'll feel happy for a couple of moments;
certain ppl do make me smile.
But not enough for me to feel like I belong.
And I thought I did, last year.
But maybe I was just trying to believe that I really was.
Maybe I was fooled by my own hope.
I don't know.
Anyone that thinks this is BS,
and that all I want is "attention",
then stop reading,
because this is how I honestly feel.
All those "good moods" are efforts
in which I try really hard to be happy.
Because I hate being sad.
It's just not me.
At all.
I guess no one really knows how I feel.
But that is my own fault.
I'm just not as open as I thought I was.
And if you must know
It really doesnt take much to make me happy.
A little note, a simple hey...
Small things like that.
I'm not hard to please.
That is why you could say I get overexcited for things sometimes
Because I really haven't gotten that feeling in Holliston.
Rarely, anyway.
And I can't say my life sucks.
Because it doesnt: I have too many good things in my life.
It's just Holliston.
It makes me feel blue.
And certain "friends"...make me feel blue.
I try, I honestly TRY so HARD.
I don't understand it.
And every single day, I literally think to myself:
"Today is a new day."
But it goes awry.
Where did my REAL good mood go??
I wonder