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well, at 1:08 this morning, i thought about getting up, turning on my computer, and writing an entry, cuz i couldnt sleep, but i didnt feel like it. so here i am. 7 and a half hours later.
ok, i know im gonna sound SUPER weird, but i've been being bothered by the last deabte in global a lot. i mean, i have gotten a lot better, and i think im ok now, like its not bothering me anymore, but like, everytime i saw or heard something that reminded me of it im just like, 'ughhhh' idk, i didnt do that badly, there was a small wikipedia incident, and idk, i just know i could've done better. cuz i kicked ass in the first 2 debates. i mean, i KILLED. i was our best cross. (not to brag) but idk, i fucked up. not that the rest of my team did much better. oh well, its just something i have to get over, which i am. slowly, but i am.
ok soo yesterday i watched the constant gardner with my dad. and its about how the drug companies are in africa and wont give them the medication they need for TB and stuff unless they also give them a test drug. so people are using the people in africa as test subjects. and there's all this conspiracy with the government and stuff. but it really got me thinking about all the people in africa that are poor and sick and go through all this pain and hardships, i suppose, and how i really dont know how to help. and i feel really selfish in a way cuz im watching this movie about all these people who live in terrible conditions, while im sitting on a huge leather couch with silk pillows. i cant help but feel guilty. but i dont know what i can do to help.
and then we watched chicken little too. it was sweeeeeeeeet.
and then michelle called me from vermont and that was cool.
so today im getting together with zara and we're gonna go down to white plains and i think we're gonna go see x-men. sweeet right? and my dad works down there so hes gonna drive us home. i like visiting him in his office cuz he HATES almost everyone there. its really funny :) haha
so call my cell today to talk...
and caitie i never remember when you're leaving... have you left yet?? i hope not :(
ok, i know im gonna sound SUPER weird, but i've been being bothered by the last deabte in global a lot. i mean, i have gotten a lot better, and i think im ok now, like its not bothering me anymore, but like, everytime i saw or heard something that reminded me of it im just like, 'ughhhh' idk, i didnt do that badly, there was a small wikipedia incident, and idk, i just know i could've done better. cuz i kicked ass in the first 2 debates. i mean, i KILLED. i was our best cross. (not to brag) but idk, i fucked up. not that the rest of my team did much better. oh well, its just something i have to get over, which i am. slowly, but i am.
ok soo yesterday i watched the constant gardner with my dad. and its about how the drug companies are in africa and wont give them the medication they need for TB and stuff unless they also give them a test drug. so people are using the people in africa as test subjects. and there's all this conspiracy with the government and stuff. but it really got me thinking about all the people in africa that are poor and sick and go through all this pain and hardships, i suppose, and how i really dont know how to help. and i feel really selfish in a way cuz im watching this movie about all these people who live in terrible conditions, while im sitting on a huge leather couch with silk pillows. i cant help but feel guilty. but i dont know what i can do to help.
and then we watched chicken little too. it was sweeeeeeeeet.
and then michelle called me from vermont and that was cool.
so today im getting together with zara and we're gonna go down to white plains and i think we're gonna go see x-men. sweeet right? and my dad works down there so hes gonna drive us home. i like visiting him in his office cuz he HATES almost everyone there. its really funny :) haha
so call my cell today to talk...
and caitie i never remember when you're leaving... have you left yet?? i hope not :(