A real update..
I think I may actually update with words - real words that make sence. Scary, eh? It's been so long.. So here I go.
I'm turning into something/someone I never ever wanted to be. I want sex. And I want it a lot. I don't know why, really. I just know I want it and if I don't get it I'll act like a total bitch. Erg. I wish I was still a virgin and never did the 'nasties' with anyone. But I cannot change that now, I can just change pieces of me; hopefully.
I am going to Leading Tickles/Point Leamington this weekend - which will help my stress levels to reduce. But of course, like always, there will be guys down there hitting on me - and Allan will get mad, and then there will be a full-out fight due to me. Erg on that. But I know if I go down, I'll do my homework and shit - so that's a good point. But I also know I'll drink and probably do a little bit of Mary-J. Erg. I hate the addictiveness of it all. Damn it to hell.
Hm. What else to say in so little time. Yes, it will be a little time because I don't really like updating a lot anymore. Um, Christmas! Yep. It'll soon be here and I'm barely started my shopping - which sucks horribly. Oh well - I'll do it next week, then I'll bitch more because of the crowds. Eh, oh well. Craig(my youngest brother-27ish) is coming home from Alberta on Saturday, so that's fucking awesome! I love Craig with a heart and a half. He's so understanding, because he's been exactly where I am - and he doesn't just shake me off .. he listens and responds. I cannot wait to hold him and hug him. And I certainly cannot wait to spend early hours in the morning - having sleepovers - talking about all of our problems. He's really the best brother a girl could ever have. I love you, Craig.
I hate LOTR - damn it to hell. Why is it something we have to do in school. That sucks ass. I'm sorry, but I hate the series. I'm not nerdy enough to spend my life reading the damn books and watching the damn movies, then writting essay's on it plus making a visual. Suck my ass, I refuse to do it over Christmas! Fail me if you wish bitch - I'll just quit anyways. Crack Whore.
Wow, that was anger-filled. Oh well, whee. Ok. I have no idea what to type - yet I'm still typing. I'm suspose to be calling Allan to finalize the plans for tomorrow. Like what time we're leaving and such. Hm. We're thinking about going on a roadtrip soon - yep, we are. I thought you'd like to know that, just in case - for whatever reason. Hrrmmmm.
I miss everyone I used to hang out with. Seems like now all I do is *refer to first paragraph* have sex. I spend all my time with Allan because I'm a sex-crazed monster. I want it more then he does. Erg. Anyways, as I was saying. I just really want to do something sometime soon with the old crowd. I really do. I already told Vanessa that I'd spend Christmas with her because her mom is working. I think that'd be nice. No one deserves to be alone on Christmas. And seeing she's a friend - I'll be her company. And I'm sure, she'd be happy if anyone else deceided to join us as well. I promise we'll have fun. I promise, I promise.
Uh.. I think I shall stop writing this huge ass update and call Allan, seeing I was suspose to call awhile ago - eh, he'll still love me. But yeah, I'll update on Sunday when I get home - probably won't get on a computer in Leading Tickles, well I may but that will just be to go on MSN and chat with some friends from here for awhile, just because I love them. So yes, I must be off. I love you all, or at least I try to. Goodbye everyone. Have a Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year - because I know I will. h0-h0-h0* :]
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I'm turning into something/someone I never ever wanted to be. I want sex. And I want it a lot. I don't know why, really. I just know I want it and if I don't get it I'll act like a total bitch. Erg. I wish I was still a virgin and never did the 'nasties' with anyone. But I cannot change that now, I can just change pieces of me; hopefully.
I am going to Leading Tickles/Point Leamington this weekend - which will help my stress levels to reduce. But of course, like always, there will be guys down there hitting on me - and Allan will get mad, and then there will be a full-out fight due to me. Erg on that. But I know if I go down, I'll do my homework and shit - so that's a good point. But I also know I'll drink and probably do a little bit of Mary-J. Erg. I hate the addictiveness of it all. Damn it to hell.
Hm. What else to say in so little time. Yes, it will be a little time because I don't really like updating a lot anymore. Um, Christmas! Yep. It'll soon be here and I'm barely started my shopping - which sucks horribly. Oh well - I'll do it next week, then I'll bitch more because of the crowds. Eh, oh well. Craig(my youngest brother-27ish) is coming home from Alberta on Saturday, so that's fucking awesome! I love Craig with a heart and a half. He's so understanding, because he's been exactly where I am - and he doesn't just shake me off .. he listens and responds. I cannot wait to hold him and hug him. And I certainly cannot wait to spend early hours in the morning - having sleepovers - talking about all of our problems. He's really the best brother a girl could ever have. I love you, Craig.
I hate LOTR - damn it to hell. Why is it something we have to do in school. That sucks ass. I'm sorry, but I hate the series. I'm not nerdy enough to spend my life reading the damn books and watching the damn movies, then writting essay's on it plus making a visual. Suck my ass, I refuse to do it over Christmas! Fail me if you wish bitch - I'll just quit anyways. Crack Whore.
Wow, that was anger-filled. Oh well, whee. Ok. I have no idea what to type - yet I'm still typing. I'm suspose to be calling Allan to finalize the plans for tomorrow. Like what time we're leaving and such. Hm. We're thinking about going on a roadtrip soon - yep, we are. I thought you'd like to know that, just in case - for whatever reason. Hrrmmmm.
I miss everyone I used to hang out with. Seems like now all I do is *refer to first paragraph* have sex. I spend all my time with Allan because I'm a sex-crazed monster. I want it more then he does. Erg. Anyways, as I was saying. I just really want to do something sometime soon with the old crowd. I really do. I already told Vanessa that I'd spend Christmas with her because her mom is working. I think that'd be nice. No one deserves to be alone on Christmas. And seeing she's a friend - I'll be her company. And I'm sure, she'd be happy if anyone else deceided to join us as well. I promise we'll have fun. I promise, I promise.
Uh.. I think I shall stop writing this huge ass update and call Allan, seeing I was suspose to call awhile ago - eh, he'll still love me. But yeah, I'll update on Sunday when I get home - probably won't get on a computer in Leading Tickles, well I may but that will just be to go on MSN and chat with some friends from here for awhile, just because I love them. So yes, I must be off. I love you all, or at least I try to. Goodbye everyone. Have a Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year - because I know I will. h0-h0-h0* :]
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