grin from ear to ear
It's the 19th! Seans court date is in 2 days. i'll have my baby back on wed. thats the greatest x-mas present ever in the entire world. I hope he means everything that he said. about our future and our baby. that he's gonna get another job and that he's not going to drink n e more. our future looks fincially stable on my end. CEI is only gonna take about 8 months of hard work and im out in the feild. I wont even be pregnant by that time. so i'll have at least 9 months of good pay under my belt to support our child. plus with sean's money we should make it. ijust hope Big Bruce and Kelley are wrong and i dont have twins cuz i dont think ill be able to support 2 kids. of course i have questions running through my head, will i be a good mother. are sean and I for real and am i doin the right thing by following my heart. Ive never wanted a baby with n e 1 before. just wouldnt of minded if i did. Seans the first man i want to marry i want to have a baby with. But i dont want to make a mistake. i dont want to invest my life, time and love to something that will fade ending in either a breakup or divorce. we havent been together long. not even a yr. but its hard not to follow my heart. its hard to take the safe road.