my baby is gone
he's gone. just like that. this morning i had him, laying in his arms. now i dont even know when the next time i'll be able to touch him, kiss him, or just be in his arms. my safest place. the next time i see my love is in a court room. watching him and hearing what our future will hold. why now. i finally fell compeltly in love with a man. full trust and honesty. we had nothing but good times ahead of us. im scared this will change what we are, how we our, our love. im scared that im not strong enough for him and for me. all i can hear in my head is the sound of his voice calling to me for help. knowing there was nothing i could do to help him. when i close my eyes all i see is the image from the news. his pittbull tattoo blurred from the mudd. i feel helpless as i sit back and wait. waiting is the most useless thing. but as i sit here and wait i wonder what is running around in your mind. there are so many thing for you to be considering. my heart breaks knowing that i only have you to think about and i already feel that my brain will explode. I thank god that your alive and in one peice. i could have lost you for good tonight. instead some more scars to add to the collection. the idea of us has definatly spun through is brain. all i can think about is how much i miss his precense.