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Today in the midst of my procrastination, I was looking at some old pictures that I found on my old webshots account, and some on my laptop. Amongst the batch were from high school. It was actually embarrassing because it was actually Jimmy (yes the ex) who decided to google-stalk me out of boredom and found the link. There we were in Disneyland for a music trip, everyone all smiles, after all, we were in the happiest place on earth, weren't we? Who would've known right then and there, I had it all and I didn't know it. My life was at it's peak of happiness. I was surrounded by my friends, all who shared a passion for music. We were at Disneyland having a blast. My family was still a whole family. My parents weren't having any problems, my grandparents were still alive, and my little baby Wisdom, was still around. We didn't have to worry about the economic crisis, and where we were gonna go for grad school (if that's the plan), or looking for a job that wasn't minimum wage & folding clothes for fun.
Still browsing through the pictures I had pictures of Wisdom in her little jacket, she loved to dress up. I had a picture of me & grandpa up in Skylawn when we went to go visit Grandma. He was already in his wheelchair then. These pictures brought to mind the most painful experiences that I have ever had to endure. I remember not knowing how to feel and lost function for weeks, feeling that my world has halted to a stop.
It's weird how no matter what is going on in OUR life, the world keeps spinning, all the processes keep going, and life just moves on.. and we have no choice but to just keep going.
"why don't we hit restart, and pause it at our favorite parts, we'll skip the goodbyes"
Oh matchbook romance. How I wish this were true.
Still browsing through the pictures I had pictures of Wisdom in her little jacket, she loved to dress up. I had a picture of me & grandpa up in Skylawn when we went to go visit Grandma. He was already in his wheelchair then. These pictures brought to mind the most painful experiences that I have ever had to endure. I remember not knowing how to feel and lost function for weeks, feeling that my world has halted to a stop.
It's weird how no matter what is going on in OUR life, the world keeps spinning, all the processes keep going, and life just moves on.. and we have no choice but to just keep going.
"why don't we hit restart, and pause it at our favorite parts, we'll skip the goodbyes"
Oh matchbook romance. How I wish this were true.