Life Hates Me. The End.
Why is it so flippin' hard to get a job in this city???
I went to Hollywood Video for the five hundred and sixty ninth time, and was finally FINALLY told that I could not have the job simply because I was going to a college 3 and a half hours away and they would prefer someone who could work... um... what's the proper word... FOREVER. So... sigh... I drove around the city, as well as the outskirts of the city, got myself lost, found a pack of cows to stare at for a few minutes, magically made all the right turns and got myself back into the city, and stumbled upon a dead end street where I watched a little girl ride around in her Barbie car... I miss those days. I really just kinda cried, thinking about how easy life used to be when you were little and everyone was looking out for you and no one expected much out of you. Boy have those days come and gone. I finally pulled myself back together and re-applied at Dollar General. I'll be in shock if they actually call, though. Then I drove around again thinking and finally decided to apply at Church St. Deli and Imports. It was closed. I practically sat in my car sucking my thumb like a baby. I felt so hopeless and unneeded. So I went back home, knowing full well that my mother expected me to return with a job... She poked her head out the door before I even got into the garage. Her eyebrows were high, and her eyes expectant and hopeful. I shook my head and could not bring myself to meet her face to face. "They didn't hire me..." I burst into tears, she yelled at me as expected and told me I haven't been looking hard enough as usual, and then she realized how pathetic I must have looked at that moment, and she took me into one of those sympathetic, pitiful, motherly embraces and rubbed my back, soothing me and apologizing while I continued to sob on her shoulder. I was a wreck. Eventually, we sat upstairs in the living room and talked about it while she handed me tissues. She wrote down a list of places for me to apply this week. It all just seems so depressing. Hollywood Video was supposed to be it. And they kept me waiting with such hope for so long... a little over a month to be about right... Sigh... I don't understand how some people just magically get offered a job and that's that. It all works out for them. Me? Man, I do everything the hard way...
It has been a very emotional past couple of days... Could be because it's my time of the month. Haha, like yesterday when I thought something was wrong with Heather and she hadn't been returning my calls for 2 days and I was ringing her doorbell and her car was in the driveway and she wasn't answering, and I called like the entire world... She was in the shower lol. I was quite the basket case, and for no reason lol. I could only imagine how silly I must have looked. I can be such a bundle of nerves at times lol.
Well, tonight I'm going with Heather to that place where her family goes camping. That should be fun and should relieve some of the stress.
And now back to my senior paper...
I went to Hollywood Video for the five hundred and sixty ninth time, and was finally FINALLY told that I could not have the job simply because I was going to a college 3 and a half hours away and they would prefer someone who could work... um... what's the proper word... FOREVER. So... sigh... I drove around the city, as well as the outskirts of the city, got myself lost, found a pack of cows to stare at for a few minutes, magically made all the right turns and got myself back into the city, and stumbled upon a dead end street where I watched a little girl ride around in her Barbie car... I miss those days. I really just kinda cried, thinking about how easy life used to be when you were little and everyone was looking out for you and no one expected much out of you. Boy have those days come and gone. I finally pulled myself back together and re-applied at Dollar General. I'll be in shock if they actually call, though. Then I drove around again thinking and finally decided to apply at Church St. Deli and Imports. It was closed. I practically sat in my car sucking my thumb like a baby. I felt so hopeless and unneeded. So I went back home, knowing full well that my mother expected me to return with a job... She poked her head out the door before I even got into the garage. Her eyebrows were high, and her eyes expectant and hopeful. I shook my head and could not bring myself to meet her face to face. "They didn't hire me..." I burst into tears, she yelled at me as expected and told me I haven't been looking hard enough as usual, and then she realized how pathetic I must have looked at that moment, and she took me into one of those sympathetic, pitiful, motherly embraces and rubbed my back, soothing me and apologizing while I continued to sob on her shoulder. I was a wreck. Eventually, we sat upstairs in the living room and talked about it while she handed me tissues. She wrote down a list of places for me to apply this week. It all just seems so depressing. Hollywood Video was supposed to be it. And they kept me waiting with such hope for so long... a little over a month to be about right... Sigh... I don't understand how some people just magically get offered a job and that's that. It all works out for them. Me? Man, I do everything the hard way...
It has been a very emotional past couple of days... Could be because it's my time of the month. Haha, like yesterday when I thought something was wrong with Heather and she hadn't been returning my calls for 2 days and I was ringing her doorbell and her car was in the driveway and she wasn't answering, and I called like the entire world... She was in the shower lol. I was quite the basket case, and for no reason lol. I could only imagine how silly I must have looked. I can be such a bundle of nerves at times lol.
Well, tonight I'm going with Heather to that place where her family goes camping. That should be fun and should relieve some of the stress.
And now back to my senior paper...