I'll cut you out just to hear you scream...
Well this week has been interesting. I don't believe I've ever fought with my mother this much and I'm getting sick of it...I just want to leave. She blames everything on me, including her behavior when I never did anything except love Derek. Ugh she'll never understand how much I want to be with him and how much I'll sacrifice to do that, she thinks I'm stupid and miserable and I'm just a huge disappointment cause I'm not like my precious little brother. I'm sorry I don't kiss everyone's butt to get what I want and Derek won't either so she'll get over it. She threatened to send me to a psychiatrist but it wouldn't help any. Blah I hate life but yeah...today we spent quality "family time" together haha! We went to Johnson City to Cheddar's and then the mall. Then we went to look at cars for me!* Mom said she would buy me a mustang if I paid the insurance but daddy took me to look at the new Eclipse and I fell in love with it!* It's gray and shiny and pretty and I want it. I hope I can talk him into it but if not then I'll settle for a Celica lol. I didn't update about prom because it sucked and I hated it...I hate prom with a passion. I'd rather go to Derek's house and watch movies but he's never home so it doesn't matter. I believe I might spend the day with Sabz tomorrow since our boyfriends are stupid. Last night we went to the bowling alley, along with my brother, and had a wonderful time. Blake and Mark came also...we always have so much fun with them. Mark changed my name to Cracker lol cause that's what he always calls me. He ate all my cappuccino mints which I don't think is healthy but oh well...I had a good time* But yeah my life sucks and my brother won't stop bugging me gawd!!!! I'm going to bed and think about how crappy my life is...I'm counting down the days til I graduate. Good flippin night and not so sweet dreams.