i was SO out of it today...
im so incredibly out of it...
well this weekend i thot that things had SOMEwhat turned up again. but i thot wrong. wooptidoo thats a surprise. mmkay umm. lets see..im an idiot. i think i just set my self up for these things. like i ruin things for myself..or like dont give myself a chance to even start them. yeah.
i guess things r bad again. not AS bad but bad again. and i think this time im just gonna pretend like nothings happening..and act completely happy..instead of moping around cuz id rather try to convince myself i'm happy then just yeah. lol i have a gift. its called a natural high =)
okay. ive decided after talkin to sam today. i want a relationship! i like someone else now really bad but i no things wont work out. becuase im just me and i'm an idiot like that. i already..well i think i already broke someones heart this week and i feel bad. =(
yeah im not so happy with my situation with mis amigos. its like you kno i do things for them but like wen it comes to doin somethin for me its just not there. its a 1 way street. i have innumerous amounts of examples. and there r other friendships where its just like me making all the efffort. why duz that always happen! i think i care a wee bit too much about everything and everyone and its a bad bad habit. but i realized if u talk things out..even tho it mite be intimidating..usually things work out. kinda..or improve so its allz well i guess.
hmm wut else. lol my dad. he's like wut r u doing. im like i just took a shower? wuts it look like. he's like ARE YOU WATCHIN THE DEBATES. im like wut debates. he's like presidential crap bla shit fuck..w/e he said. im like wut r u talking about???? he's like see your not an adult you dont no anything about whats going on your not educated!!!!! im like uhh? okay. umm sorry? he's like go now watch the debates crap. why do you like bushh! what are your points! yadi bla. im like holy crap get a grip. so then my mom like made fun of me. and she's like bye joelle! *they went out somwhere* have fun watchin the debates!! bwahahaha im like hm nice.
this is a BEYOND pointless lj entry seriusly. but im so thankful this friday i dont get a like difficency thing sent homne. i mite have like nothing below a b? maybe possibly hopefully. but im also really glad its a friday 2morrow! happy burfday mellie!!!
yeah..hmm it kinda makes you think like. okay if youve known someone for a while. you trust them...and like it seems like they trust you. like wut if this whole time they were lying to u. and everything u told them they told someone else and used against you. like how do u no ppl rnt doing that. iz that wut trust iz? yeah interesting.
lol this is soo pointless i dont feel like clicking update!! dude i got an a- on my english thing woot! yeahh. dude i put on make up today. and yay ppl said it looked cute! i was oh so proud of myself it wuz fantastico. lololol okay. dude the world iz being turned upside down! ppl r turnin into druggies and some are already whores!! ahahah sam okay. hers a joke donna told me and i wuz laughin bout 4 like 2 days. i found it SO funni.
knock knock?
whos there
who...
who who?
hey elen! we got an owl over here!
ahahhah thats TOO funni. or im just stupid...or both!! heheh
okay im so sorry for even bothering i no this lj entry wuz retarded. but i donno. i didnt really wanna update but i did. okay well i love you guys innumerously much! ..new vocab.. yay k toodles
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well this weekend i thot that things had SOMEwhat turned up again. but i thot wrong. wooptidoo thats a surprise. mmkay umm. lets see..im an idiot. i think i just set my self up for these things. like i ruin things for myself..or like dont give myself a chance to even start them. yeah.
i guess things r bad again. not AS bad but bad again. and i think this time im just gonna pretend like nothings happening..and act completely happy..instead of moping around cuz id rather try to convince myself i'm happy then just yeah. lol i have a gift. its called a natural high =)
okay. ive decided after talkin to sam today. i want a relationship! i like someone else now really bad but i no things wont work out. becuase im just me and i'm an idiot like that. i already..well i think i already broke someones heart this week and i feel bad. =(
yeah im not so happy with my situation with mis amigos. its like you kno i do things for them but like wen it comes to doin somethin for me its just not there. its a 1 way street. i have innumerous amounts of examples. and there r other friendships where its just like me making all the efffort. why duz that always happen! i think i care a wee bit too much about everything and everyone and its a bad bad habit. but i realized if u talk things out..even tho it mite be intimidating..usually things work out. kinda..or improve so its allz well i guess.
hmm wut else. lol my dad. he's like wut r u doing. im like i just took a shower? wuts it look like. he's like ARE YOU WATCHIN THE DEBATES. im like wut debates. he's like presidential crap bla shit fuck..w/e he said. im like wut r u talking about???? he's like see your not an adult you dont no anything about whats going on your not educated!!!!! im like uhh? okay. umm sorry? he's like go now watch the debates crap. why do you like bushh! what are your points! yadi bla. im like holy crap get a grip. so then my mom like made fun of me. and she's like bye joelle! *they went out somwhere* have fun watchin the debates!! bwahahaha im like hm nice.
this is a BEYOND pointless lj entry seriusly. but im so thankful this friday i dont get a like difficency thing sent homne. i mite have like nothing below a b? maybe possibly hopefully. but im also really glad its a friday 2morrow! happy burfday mellie!!!
yeah..hmm it kinda makes you think like. okay if youve known someone for a while. you trust them...and like it seems like they trust you. like wut if this whole time they were lying to u. and everything u told them they told someone else and used against you. like how do u no ppl rnt doing that. iz that wut trust iz? yeah interesting.
lol this is soo pointless i dont feel like clicking update!! dude i got an a- on my english thing woot! yeahh. dude i put on make up today. and yay ppl said it looked cute! i was oh so proud of myself it wuz fantastico. lololol okay. dude the world iz being turned upside down! ppl r turnin into druggies and some are already whores!! ahahah sam okay. hers a joke donna told me and i wuz laughin bout 4 like 2 days. i found it SO funni.
knock knock?
whos there
who...
who who?
hey elen! we got an owl over here!
ahahhah thats TOO funni. or im just stupid...or both!! heheh
okay im so sorry for even bothering i no this lj entry wuz retarded. but i donno. i didnt really wanna update but i did. okay well i love you guys innumerously much! ..new vocab.. yay k toodles
♥