Another cliche, angsty LJ rant...
This year needs to end. I need to stop being in love with someone I can't be with. It needs to hurry up and start getting cold outside. I need to go somewhere out of state, but I don't really have anywhere to go. Up north somewhere would be nice. Alaska would rock. Don't know anyone in alsaka anymore tho'. :/ I have two and half weeks of paid vacation available to me for chrissakes. I have money to do things but I keep spending it on groceries for friends' families and single mothers. I need to stop and take care of me for once. I'm hurting myself and I know it. I just don't stop. I don't want to pay attention to me. I'm the source of most of my problems in the first place. I wish I had people I could turn to. I need to escape being me for awhile. I need to stop feeling so bitchy. How I still love life and people as much as I do I will never fucking understand. Fuck my stupid, shitty heart. I wanna' scream. Fuck this misery shit. I hate it.