// ten tons against me and you're gone

[shortbusbully]

As the year comes to an end I feel satisfied with my accomplishments. I've learned a lot of things that I couldn't have learned without being the person that I am. I've also lost a lot this year, in a number of ways. Mostly my faith in people, my willingness to be accepting of my family, and some of my friends, too. I don't really understand a

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[candylover24]

i know that i havent been through as much as you, but at one point in my life i have felt everything that you described. everyone feels upset, trouble, left out, feel like everyone is talking about them- but, somehow, everyone gets through it. i want to help you so much. maybe its because we're adolescents, but i think that if i tried to help, that you would come back and say i dont need your help so go away and leave me alone- the response that everyone would give. i would talk to you about anything you could imagine- happy, dark, disturbing, light, i dont care. i just want to talk to you to make sure that you are ok. but feeling like you would just reject me if i tried to help just makes me upset and, at times, wonder what i should have done instead. let out your emotions- no ones going to think anything bad about you if you say you think one person is leaving you out or being mean to you. hell, you make jokes about how im stupid. i dont care it doesnt hurt you. but maybe thats your way of dealing with things. cuz everyone deals with different situations.

i dont want you to feel sad. i dont want you to inflict pain upon yourself. i wish that you felt better. i wish that you would talk to me. it would make me happy. cuz when you dont, it makes me sad. and at that point, i dont really know what to do next.