// kill me, kiss me //
As the days go by, I feel more and ever more detached from the world around me. Estranged from the truths I wish not to disclose to myself. It's bothersome - a human mind would trick its host into believing whatever is most profitable to the situation, even when the reality is quite the opposite. Example: I think I can improve, I'm convince that I'm trying to improve, and I believe that I have been getting better.
Really, it's all just a downhill battle. I'm doing worse than I was at the beginning of the year, in a lot of ways. I don't really remember my New Year's Resolutions, but if I made any, they're probably broken. Actually, I think I said something about a girl (as a joke) to someone I was talking to. I remember asking girls to go out with me on the 31st over IM, saying "It's the last day for me to get my 03 New Year's Resolution for a girlfriend, will you go out with me?"
Now I can't decide whether that was funny or stupid.
Now, people are convinced I like this girl who has a boyfriend, and although I keep teliing them I'm not interested in relationships, they think it's set in stone. Maybe I do "like" her, but that doesn't matter, because it's not "love", and I"m not interested in "like".
Everything's so black and white nowadays. Heh. That's funny, because I'm color blind.
Really, it's all just a downhill battle. I'm doing worse than I was at the beginning of the year, in a lot of ways. I don't really remember my New Year's Resolutions, but if I made any, they're probably broken. Actually, I think I said something about a girl (as a joke) to someone I was talking to. I remember asking girls to go out with me on the 31st over IM, saying "It's the last day for me to get my 03 New Year's Resolution for a girlfriend, will you go out with me?"
Now I can't decide whether that was funny or stupid.
Now, people are convinced I like this girl who has a boyfriend, and although I keep teliing them I'm not interested in relationships, they think it's set in stone. Maybe I do "like" her, but that doesn't matter, because it's not "love", and I"m not interested in "like".
Everything's so black and white nowadays. Heh. That's funny, because I'm color blind.