wishing he cared....
Lately it seems that anything and everything that could come between Lee and I is doing just that. He wants to be able to work and nap and spend time with his friends while we're at school and that doesnt sit well with me because it seems to take away time that he and I could spend together. Today all that we did was go to class together, run by the clab and eat at the hanger for a few minutes. We hugged once today and didnt ever hold hands. Thats not what a couple should be. Im getting a little ahead of myself. So basically since he wants time to have friends and swears that me and him will still have time together, I figure that maybe I should do some thing to meet new people. When I did, it jsut so happened that they were guys. I had lunch with one and them today and some of his friends and Lee is throwing a fit about it. I jsut dont make girl friends very easily.... and I hate being alone. (although no matter what I do I seem to end up that way)
I think I have tried so hard to understand him and how he works, what he needs from me and what he just wants... and I found a way for him to do the same for me. Hes had the opportunity since the middle of november and still hasnt taken it. He just doesnt really seem to care very much anymore. I jsut dont want to be near him anymore. So I figured that in philosophy class he would be able to learn more abotu me and how I think. Maybe he would understand a little bit more about why Im so critical and why everything has to be logical.... but no, all he does is make it about him and how I shouldnt call him stupid because he thinks "differently." And maybe Im trying to make it all about me when it shouldnt be, but I jsut wish he cared....
I think I have tried so hard to understand him and how he works, what he needs from me and what he just wants... and I found a way for him to do the same for me. Hes had the opportunity since the middle of november and still hasnt taken it. He just doesnt really seem to care very much anymore. I jsut dont want to be near him anymore. So I figured that in philosophy class he would be able to learn more abotu me and how I think. Maybe he would understand a little bit more about why Im so critical and why everything has to be logical.... but no, all he does is make it about him and how I shouldnt call him stupid because he thinks "differently." And maybe Im trying to make it all about me when it shouldnt be, but I jsut wish he cared....