Withdrawl
God i hate coming home after KODA experiences.
I loath feeling empty.
Theres definately no wind in my sail.
Just when i think life is good. I'm starting to feel it here. I find it was all an illusion. A false sense of security. months w/o contact and you think about them less. You forget how much even the most insagnificant event can mean soo much when you're around them. They light you up and fill you out. Just seeing their face and hearing their voice feels soo good cuz of everything you know will follow. I feel fullfilled. I wipe the dust off my wings and they open. Feels soo good to fly. To truly be myself. Say everything I think and be utterly accepted. Hide nothing, present no false face. Be truly myself. I so miss this feeling. And i despise the way im feeling now. Just a shell. Completely drained.
I loath feeling empty.
Theres definately no wind in my sail.
Just when i think life is good. I'm starting to feel it here. I find it was all an illusion. A false sense of security. months w/o contact and you think about them less. You forget how much even the most insagnificant event can mean soo much when you're around them. They light you up and fill you out. Just seeing their face and hearing their voice feels soo good cuz of everything you know will follow. I feel fullfilled. I wipe the dust off my wings and they open. Feels soo good to fly. To truly be myself. Say everything I think and be utterly accepted. Hide nothing, present no false face. Be truly myself. I so miss this feeling. And i despise the way im feeling now. Just a shell. Completely drained.