so much to think about.
so i know i havent written in this thing in forever. but i thought i might while im thinking about it.
i was sick today so no school for caitlin. i HATE being sick. with a passion.
i really really really miss people at rocky.
i mean i have friends at niceville which is nice and all, but really kittie is the only friend i have there that can compare to the fun that i have when im with rocky friends [lauren included].
i would really like to hang out with my rocky friends alot more this year very soon if possible.
i mean, if they still want to hang out with me. sometimes i get the feeling that they have forgotten about me.
it makes me want to cry.
i mean, i havent eve hung out with amanda that much since school started last year.
and she's my other half. so you can see why i'm saddened at the fact that i don't really get to hang out with my friends from rocky anymore that often.
and one day when amanda grace and lauren stayed the night at my house, grace was almost not allowed to come because someone had told mrs. given that i had "changed for the worse since i had gone to niceville."
tha really upset me. just because i went to a public school, doesn't mean i'm automaticaly another statistic of a teenager who goes and gets wasted on the weekends. that's not me. i'm not like that. i don't get pressured into doing things. if i don't want to do it, then i'm not going to.
trust me, i've been offered to do it a lot of times this year by some friends, but i refuse.
another thing is the stupid boys at niceville.
the good news is, that i'm finally over seth. that took a very long time, but i finally realized that he is a jerk, and wasn't even worth my time.
then i started dating danny. and that was a mistake. not only did we always fight because he drinks and i didn't like it, but in the end he ended up breaking up with me to get back with his ex girlfriend that he broke up with to date me in the first place. yeah i know, what a jerk right? i don't know why i always end up liking jerks. whatev. anyways, that really hurt me because that was the first time that a guy had ever broken up with me. he made me have trust issues towards guys, because i was so open with him and let him in, and then he did that to me. and it sucked too because kittie shares a locker with him because while we were dating she got kicked out of her locker and moved into his because he offered. so i had to see him every day after we broke up, and all he would do is stare at me. no talking. it was one of the most awkward things i have ever been through. another thing that upset me about him was someone told me one of the reasons why he broke up with me was because i would not "put out". that really hurt to hear, especially because before we even started dating i told him that i was not going to do that. but now i'm over that and we're somewhat friends now. and his girlfriend and i are friends now too. she is really sweet. and she kind of makes me want to hide my face in a corner, because she is SO pretty. her and her bestfriend are both absolutey gorgeous. but it happens. lol.
so right after that happened, the same thing kinda happened twice. after that, dannys friend drew started liking me and we started hanging out. it's a very good thing that danny gave me trust issues towards guys though, because after i sort ofrejected him by saying that i wasn't ready to get in another relationship [because i didn't want to hurt him in the end by realizing that he might be a rebound], he decided that he also wanted to get back together with his ex that he ha broken up with before he started liking me. so it kind of hapened twice, but i wasn't realy bothered by the 2nd time, because i didn't really like him like that anyways.
and now, all i have is trust issues. lol. but that's ok, because i would rather be cautious than be in another situation like that.
OO. but now, since this semester startd, ryan sims is in one of my classes :] mmmmmhmmmm! haha.
tomorrow, i am going mudding for the very first time. i'm kind of excited :]
then, i am staying at kittie's house while rocky homecoming is taking place. tell me how that goes! i feel bad for kittie because now that she is dating richy, she wants to go, but he already asked natalie a long time ago. that sucks. but i'll be there for her.
to everyone: thank you for reading about my life. i'm sorry it was so long.
adieu<3
i was sick today so no school for caitlin. i HATE being sick. with a passion.
i really really really miss people at rocky.
i mean i have friends at niceville which is nice and all, but really kittie is the only friend i have there that can compare to the fun that i have when im with rocky friends [lauren included].
i would really like to hang out with my rocky friends alot more this year very soon if possible.
i mean, if they still want to hang out with me. sometimes i get the feeling that they have forgotten about me.
it makes me want to cry.
i mean, i havent eve hung out with amanda that much since school started last year.
and she's my other half. so you can see why i'm saddened at the fact that i don't really get to hang out with my friends from rocky anymore that often.
and one day when amanda grace and lauren stayed the night at my house, grace was almost not allowed to come because someone had told mrs. given that i had "changed for the worse since i had gone to niceville."
tha really upset me. just because i went to a public school, doesn't mean i'm automaticaly another statistic of a teenager who goes and gets wasted on the weekends. that's not me. i'm not like that. i don't get pressured into doing things. if i don't want to do it, then i'm not going to.
trust me, i've been offered to do it a lot of times this year by some friends, but i refuse.
another thing is the stupid boys at niceville.
the good news is, that i'm finally over seth. that took a very long time, but i finally realized that he is a jerk, and wasn't even worth my time.
then i started dating danny. and that was a mistake. not only did we always fight because he drinks and i didn't like it, but in the end he ended up breaking up with me to get back with his ex girlfriend that he broke up with to date me in the first place. yeah i know, what a jerk right? i don't know why i always end up liking jerks. whatev. anyways, that really hurt me because that was the first time that a guy had ever broken up with me. he made me have trust issues towards guys, because i was so open with him and let him in, and then he did that to me. and it sucked too because kittie shares a locker with him because while we were dating she got kicked out of her locker and moved into his because he offered. so i had to see him every day after we broke up, and all he would do is stare at me. no talking. it was one of the most awkward things i have ever been through. another thing that upset me about him was someone told me one of the reasons why he broke up with me was because i would not "put out". that really hurt to hear, especially because before we even started dating i told him that i was not going to do that. but now i'm over that and we're somewhat friends now. and his girlfriend and i are friends now too. she is really sweet. and she kind of makes me want to hide my face in a corner, because she is SO pretty. her and her bestfriend are both absolutey gorgeous. but it happens. lol.
so right after that happened, the same thing kinda happened twice. after that, dannys friend drew started liking me and we started hanging out. it's a very good thing that danny gave me trust issues towards guys though, because after i sort ofrejected him by saying that i wasn't ready to get in another relationship [because i didn't want to hurt him in the end by realizing that he might be a rebound], he decided that he also wanted to get back together with his ex that he ha broken up with before he started liking me. so it kind of hapened twice, but i wasn't realy bothered by the 2nd time, because i didn't really like him like that anyways.
and now, all i have is trust issues. lol. but that's ok, because i would rather be cautious than be in another situation like that.
OO. but now, since this semester startd, ryan sims is in one of my classes :] mmmmmhmmmm! haha.
tomorrow, i am going mudding for the very first time. i'm kind of excited :]
then, i am staying at kittie's house while rocky homecoming is taking place. tell me how that goes! i feel bad for kittie because now that she is dating richy, she wants to go, but he already asked natalie a long time ago. that sucks. but i'll be there for her.
to everyone: thank you for reading about my life. i'm sorry it was so long.
adieu<3