You...
It was all nothing. I poured all of myself into something that broke my heart into a million pieces. Its so hard to hear about it- to know that everything you said was a lie. I feel so stupid- so incredibly dumb to fall for someone like you. Sometimes I can't even breath when I think about it- about how you told me all those things and I honestly believed you meant them. I have cried myself to sleep over you- ive begged and said im sorry a thousand times on your voicemail for you to just come back. I've prayed at night for just one more chance to make things right and I never even meant anything to you. How can someone do that? How can someone not have a soul like you? I hate myself for getting into this. I hate how even now I sit here crying knowing all you've done to me. I miss you and I fucking hate that. Because I know how horrible you've been to me. I know I deserve so much better but something in me still wants everything to be okay.And that pisses me off.I MEANT NOTHING TO YOU. Ugh, My heart hurts...I think I need to go to sleep. What i really wanna say is...How could you?