Yay! It's the 30th
Ok, so today was mixed.
Today is October 30th and my 3 month with Kev. Love u!!!! <3.
We actually got to see each other today, the 30th, for the first time since our first date, which should have been awesome.
However, our time spent today with each other was him staring at me, with those eyes that know i was about 2 cry. I felt like such a bitch for being in such a bad mood today, and i h8 when he worries about me, its not fair to him. because, ultimately, i am not worth worrying over. but w/e.
Um, i had 2 tests today, and i know i didnt do as well as id hoped i would, but thats ok, as long as i get my credits, i will be fine.
I officially LOVE BELL HS!! We have a dance this friday. a "No Shades of Grey: Black and White Dance" and it will be so awesome. Kev cant go, so myself and 4 of my friends decided to turn it into a 'girls night' and i think it will be so fun. I decided not to wear my lbd because Kev wont be there to see it. So im going to wear either a black skirt or pants, and this amazing black and white polkadotted clubbing shirt.
The dance will be uber-awesome, and thus a successful girls night. Half the fun in dances is letting loose and also getting all 'dolled' or 'gothed' or 'punked' or 'sexed' up. hehe make-overs!!!
Anyways, im feeling quite a bit better about what happened with Janice regarding Dad. i think im ready to say "fuck it" and remove him from my life permanently, with no regrets. but i know it will take alot of courage, and wont make things hurt less, but its something i have to do. wish me luck!
Im excited about my Cordon Bleu stuff, and picked the most amazing demo class to attend on the 15th. and i am actually pretty happy with the essay i wrote for it. actually im over-the-moon about the essay i wrote, im really proud of myself, which is a total shock!
In terms of my stress level and health stuff, im still pretty stressed, and my health sux right now. i really dont want to go to my appt thursday, because i have a feeling hes going to order bed rest again. which is total hell, and so overrated. if he tells me i have to stay in bed again, i will fight him on it. i know im sick, but i also know that the show must go on, otherwise meaning life. thus including my philosophy that "life is a bitch, but i dont have to be". i have 3 appts this week, and its like "NNNNOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!! I WONT GO!" but i always do. lol, that is soo pethetic of me, but w/e.
Im ranting, so im going to stop this entry.
*HUGS* for all,
Chelsea
P.s. <3 u forever Kev! We really do owe Al for eternity eh?
Today is October 30th and my 3 month with Kev. Love u!!!! <3.
We actually got to see each other today, the 30th, for the first time since our first date, which should have been awesome.
However, our time spent today with each other was him staring at me, with those eyes that know i was about 2 cry. I felt like such a bitch for being in such a bad mood today, and i h8 when he worries about me, its not fair to him. because, ultimately, i am not worth worrying over. but w/e.
Um, i had 2 tests today, and i know i didnt do as well as id hoped i would, but thats ok, as long as i get my credits, i will be fine.
I officially LOVE BELL HS!! We have a dance this friday. a "No Shades of Grey: Black and White Dance" and it will be so awesome. Kev cant go, so myself and 4 of my friends decided to turn it into a 'girls night' and i think it will be so fun. I decided not to wear my lbd because Kev wont be there to see it. So im going to wear either a black skirt or pants, and this amazing black and white polkadotted clubbing shirt.
The dance will be uber-awesome, and thus a successful girls night. Half the fun in dances is letting loose and also getting all 'dolled' or 'gothed' or 'punked' or 'sexed' up. hehe make-overs!!!
Anyways, im feeling quite a bit better about what happened with Janice regarding Dad. i think im ready to say "fuck it" and remove him from my life permanently, with no regrets. but i know it will take alot of courage, and wont make things hurt less, but its something i have to do. wish me luck!
Im excited about my Cordon Bleu stuff, and picked the most amazing demo class to attend on the 15th. and i am actually pretty happy with the essay i wrote for it. actually im over-the-moon about the essay i wrote, im really proud of myself, which is a total shock!
In terms of my stress level and health stuff, im still pretty stressed, and my health sux right now. i really dont want to go to my appt thursday, because i have a feeling hes going to order bed rest again. which is total hell, and so overrated. if he tells me i have to stay in bed again, i will fight him on it. i know im sick, but i also know that the show must go on, otherwise meaning life. thus including my philosophy that "life is a bitch, but i dont have to be". i have 3 appts this week, and its like "NNNNOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!! I WONT GO!" but i always do. lol, that is soo pethetic of me, but w/e.
Im ranting, so im going to stop this entry.
*HUGS* for all,
Chelsea
P.s. <3 u forever Kev! We really do owe Al for eternity eh?