Thanks, your good to talk to but you have off-days...
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I think if I hear any more about this recession, I am gonna go into my own great depression just having to listen to all this shit.
The network meeting went well today. For anyone who doesn't know I was born through donor sperm insemination, and my mother helps run a support group for parent's about "telling" their children or for the young people themselves. I was working behind the counter at the book and library stall most of the day, but I occasionally got a chance to creep out. Once to get up on stage and be part of a young people's panel answering questions about how we were "told" we were donor conceieved and stuff. Basically I was the shinng example it could all go well in the end. You CAN end up with a slutty, greedy, misanthropic, depressed, sociopathic son if a medical student wanks into a cup for the priveledge.
I also had a group session with some other young people which was... interesting. From the moment he first watched me on stage, this random guy called Alec followed me around all day, hardly leaving my side. He was almost totally mute, he probably said about 20 words all day. Which was awkward because he would come and find me while I was doing the bookstall and just stand there, expecting to be entertained or something. He asked for my number at the end, and I said I didn't have one and I could tell he thought I was lying, for the first time all day he said he said "goodbye" and went to talk to his parents. Poor thing.
I am having to practically beat boys off with a stick these days! XD
(or as Rusty helpfully said, "beat off boy's sticks")
Also my brother was there, doing the tea and coffee and his friend Joe was there. Joe is only 14 I think but I can't lie and say he isn't massively hot. Yeah, what are you gonna arrest me on, thinking paedophillic thoughts!?
It's no worse than Rusty's little diver except he is 8 years older than me and should know better XD
Yeah the date went well but now I have totally finished it. Everyone who is reading this probably already knows this, so I won't cover it in-depth. I feel so guilty still. Isn't this what i have wanted, LONGED FOR, for years? And now I have it I am just tossing it aside. He was in love with me, after only knowing me four weeks. He told me so in the cinema, and again in the square, and again at the bus stop and on MSN. I never liked him. I didn't want to do what i did to Sam again, to torture someone by dangling something so tantaslisingly close to them and then snatching it away from them. What I did to him was inhumane. I mean, this time, I didn't even do anything wrong! I didn't use him for sexual purposes, or deviate him into thinking I loved him back.
Maybe this will REMIND you Gregory why I don't allow you to have any human interactions outside the essentials. You disobeyed me and you got taught a lesson. You were tricked into thinking finally something good, positive would happen in my life but it was a false alarm again. Note to self: never date one of your employees again. Or anyone come to think of it.
Thankyou Rusty, for saving me. But I am still suspicious, that was suspiciously easy...
Jack says:
heya
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Back?
Jack says:
yeah but not for long - i came on to say goodnight!
Jack says:
:)
FREE TIBET WITH EVERY PURCHASE says:
Ahh right =P
Jack says:
and if you wanted to meet :)
I rip peoples lives APART. How ironic, that I cause pain because people love me. I'm sorry Sam, I failed you and I should have done so much better. God knows why you still put up with me after all that shit. I'm proud of myself and disgusted at myself at the same time. God knows I did the right thing this time. I hate being so handsome, and so bold. If I wasn't, so pretty, I would be much happier to slip into the unknown blend than stand out, as an object of attraction. I wish I was ugly, and sparkling.
Jack says:
ive been thinking about u soooo much
Jack says:
I love you
Jack says:
you just make me feel so happy
I want my sweetheart, a meloncholic. I need someone who I can't explore their entire personality in two hours. I want someone deep, and interesting. If there was a button that would instantly turn me straight I would press it. Two main reasons. I really want kids, my own kids. Second, it's not fun being an outsider of both groups. I can't fit in with the straight people because I like men, I can't fit in with the gay people because I am not camp at all. I act like I'm straight and they really don't like that. A few in college have pretty much said that to me.
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