people chain -
I'm at iHooked right now & all my friends are playing Warcraft, a game I can't seem to comprehend.
Anyway. I haven't cut anything this week except Glee. As much as I don't want to admit it, I'm having a hard time staying in it. Singing has always been my passion, but I'm not passionate about it when I sing with Glee. Like there's no love? It takes time to fall in love with something (or even someone), but something like singing should be innate, right? Like I shouldn't care if I'm in a group I love or not because I get to sing anyway. Stress. Yes, they teach me how to sing & do things properly but there are so many restrictions that I don't really enjoy. I don't know what I'm doing anymore, staying in an organization I'm not really happy with. I don't get to be myself when I'm with them. With Glee, I'm so quiet & demure & it makes me want to rip my face apart! The only times I get to be myself is when I don't listen & then the conductor calls my attention & I'm back to being quiet & demure. Plus, I get too tired to study afterwards. & we all know I can't let my grades slip.
At the end of the day, it's not about whether I love to sing anymore because I know for a fact that I would jump at the chance to break into song. At the end of the day, it's about the people & the time & my purpose in the organization.
Anyway. I haven't cut anything this week except Glee. As much as I don't want to admit it, I'm having a hard time staying in it. Singing has always been my passion, but I'm not passionate about it when I sing with Glee. Like there's no love? It takes time to fall in love with something (or even someone), but something like singing should be innate, right? Like I shouldn't care if I'm in a group I love or not because I get to sing anyway. Stress. Yes, they teach me how to sing & do things properly but there are so many restrictions that I don't really enjoy. I don't know what I'm doing anymore, staying in an organization I'm not really happy with. I don't get to be myself when I'm with them. With Glee, I'm so quiet & demure & it makes me want to rip my face apart! The only times I get to be myself is when I don't listen & then the conductor calls my attention & I'm back to being quiet & demure. Plus, I get too tired to study afterwards. & we all know I can't let my grades slip.
At the end of the day, it's not about whether I love to sing anymore because I know for a fact that I would jump at the chance to break into song. At the end of the day, it's about the people & the time & my purpose in the organization.