cover the mirror when you get out of the shower
How would you react if you paused your life right now to go back and look at all the mistakes you made, how horrendus you treated yourself, and the people you cared about the most?
I'd really like to know, because it's killing me.
Talking to Adam made me come to the realization that I can't just push you to the back of my mind and pretend like you don't exist, or that everything is okay. Because it's really not, and you being gone is real. He made me realize how much I truly do miss you, and that I've never been as terrified as I get when I think about how you're going to be when you come home. More and more of me dies every day I have to live without you.
I'd really like to know, because it's killing me.
Talking to Adam made me come to the realization that I can't just push you to the back of my mind and pretend like you don't exist, or that everything is okay. Because it's really not, and you being gone is real. He made me realize how much I truly do miss you, and that I've never been as terrified as I get when I think about how you're going to be when you come home. More and more of me dies every day I have to live without you.