This isn't about who you think it's about....

[shootinstaraluv]

I never realized how much I hate you.

You made me feel like shit for so fucking long and I wonder why I put up with you. Maybe it was hope. Hope That everything would change. Maybe it was love. Love for something I wanted more than anything in the world.

Now that I have a good thing going for me I can take a good enough look back and realize how much I hated you for all those years we were together. Everything you said to me and did to me made me think harder and over analyze shit to the point I hated myself more and more.

To Think of the things you made me do:

• Cut Myself
• Attempt Suicide
• Hurt People
• Lose My Family
• Lose Myself
• Lose Everything
• Push Friends Away
• Not Allowing Me To Have Friends
• Making Me Feel Worthless
• Making Me Feel Like I Wasn't Good Enough

Thank the Goddess I had people who helped me. Thank Everything above that I had will.

Thank god you're gone.

The Old Me Is Dead And Gone.