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Hey, so im bored and frankly feeling a lil sick to my stomach. I need a lil vent. I finally got a hold of my doctor and found out my test results. What i didnt want to be high, is high. So im going to get a cat scan on my adrenal glands and my ovaries. God i hope its nothing as serious as a tumor. But its hard not to think that way cuz thats mainly what they use cat scans for. To look for cysts, tumors or damage. Not cool. I just wanna know either way. Im tired of all this stress. So brans graduation was last week and it was so nice. Teary was i? I was so proud when he walked across the stage!!! Everyone cheered so loud and the expression on his face made it all the more special to me. It was so emotional when corey got up. Everyone stood up extra long and clapped for him. He blew us and his family a kiss. Oh My it was so sad and so nice for him to know everyone was supporting him. The funeral was even worse. SO sad. So many ppl showed up, it was really good to see the amount of support they had. Gave him and his mom a hug. He was such a mess. Seeing my brother crying was the hardest for me though. But anyway, so this week i have to go into the hospital and pick up preps for my cat scan. FUN. NOT. Oh well. So i guess were going camping on canada day. It'll be different with all my friends scattered and not all together, not sure whos going yet. Its nice meeting new ppl at the same time. I have to learn to let go. Everyone else keeps telling me hes not worth the worry over. I mean while im going through all this scary stuff, his life still goes on, and thats the way he has it. While he tells me he doesnt have time to talk EVER, he always seems to have time to do all this other stuff that doesnt envolve me. Thats such an asshole move. Im starting to except that it will never different, cuz what he wants, he gets, no matter how hurtful to me. And not to care to ask whats going on is just mean and shows how into himself he really is. K im done my vent. Gotta go laydown for a bit. Lata ppl. Lissa.