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[shootembangbang]

i hate these entries. but it just has to be done.

its a familiar feeling. my roles and all of that.. dont really account to anything.
im incredibly lost.
& i dont really feel like i belong.
humans have like a.. need to belong, to something.. blah. to anything really.
when beau and i were dating.. i was comfortable. i had something, i had that affection. but im no longer a girlfriend.
and im no longer a best friend, really.
i mean, i rarely see leigh
and allison i see everyday and we dont really talk. and its extremely upsetting.
my dad is fucking rediculous and my mom is pretty distant. im not much of a daughter either.
and everyone else well.. i cant help but feel akward
and self concious around.
its like.. i have made 1 really good friend in highschool.
and im in love with him.

and im struggling.

and its tough to feel like youve got nobody.
i know how that sounds so lame, and i mean.. everyone feels that way once and while.
but im trying so hard to not feel that way and its just not working.
and im not sure what to do anymore.
about anything.

to sum this shit up i basically just feel akward around everyone.
and im striving for some sort of belonging.