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I've been in a really awkward mood the past couple of days, so i thought i would write in here, maybe it will help maybe not i guess it wont hurt to try.
So here are my rambles, only read if you're bored because they might not make sense.
First off I hate looking at peoples myspace & sometimes i wonder if people think this about me, i guess not everybody but alot of people out there idk, seem so fake. I guess not fake but almost like theyre trying to fit this mold that someone has set out for them, weather it be friends, boyfriends/girlfriends, or parents, im not sure. I just dont get why you would try to fit a mold for them or be a certain person for them when theyre suppose to love you for who you are. Which leads me to my friends I have a friend who wants me to fit a mold or be that diffrent person or basically do everything her way. Which makes us fight alot. It bothers me because i love her to death but i feel like if i dont agree with her, or do everything her way or what she wants done its going to start a huge fight & i just cant stand it. I really cant, im not going to stop being friends with this person but im deffnatly not going to change for them. but anyway.
Dennis leaves for west Virginia tomorrow at 7am, im not even going to see him tonight. it sucks realllly bad. i hate feeling alone. and i hate the feeling like "well i wonder what hes doing" or "i wonder if hes thinking about me too" shouldnt he be? Shouldnt he worry about me being here. I mean i know he trusts me a billion percent but yaknow that little like well i wonder what shes doing. I just dont know if he does. That kinda shit bothers me i wish he would tell me more whats on his mind but he dosent. I guess if thats the most of our problems were doing pretty well then.
My mom & I have been fighting non-stop. I cant wait for my aunt to move out becuase i think thats where the real sorce is.. she leaves november 1st yay! lol.
My brother goes to iraq nov. 2, thats going to be intense i miss him tons & hes only in Germany when hes over in iraq not only am i gunna miss him but im gunna worry like crazy.
I really miss Brittany Saville, i wish she were going to Panama.