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For some unknown reason i am in an excellent mood. I've just been figuring things out alot lately &that makes me happy. Anyway even though just about nobody is going to Cancun except me veronica and the boys im okay with it, i see who those true people are &we are going to have a blast. Also I'm really happy with my stand point in life, i am single &im very happy with it. At the same time I may have my eye on someone, but if things don't work out i dont think ill be to disappointed. Actually I dont expect them to work out at all, because thats life. Im just trying to have fun with things and not take life very seriously. I do need to start going to school though, I missed 3 days last week and it s just so hard to get energy. This is my last year I know next year when im in college im gunna be like damn I wanna go back. Senior year is flying by and as excited as i am i am scared to death. Like hey here comes the real world like a snowball in the face, you have to pay for school, you have to pay your cell phone bill, your car payments, &still somehow maintain a 'life' &at the same time your 18 your an adult. Im scared of change, im scared to grow up, to move out, to be on my own. Dont get me wrong I cannot wait to live by myself and be able to do whatever I want, I just dont want to end up like my dad.. Hes never owned his own house hes an alcoholic with a shitty job. I like getting drunk, I like partying but i hope one day i wake up like okay im ready to be an adult now, i swear hes stil la teenager. Actually when i grow up i want to be just like my mom. I think she is perfect, i wouldnt want any other kind of mom.. no more strict & no less strict. Shes someone I can basically tell everything to, I can laugh and joke with her and dont have to worry about her judging me i love it. My friends lately have been shitty, but everyone goes threw rough times. Me & tiffany are getting along great &im finally done with ALL my senior pictures! yay..
well i think ive wrote enough even though I feel like I could go on for daysss.