I love the way You Hurt - Chapter 16
Title : I Love the way You Hurt
Author : me and lovu_lovu_aiba
Pairings : Sakuraiba, Juntoshi, will have some Sakumiya later on
Rating : +17, NC (it won't be hardcore but I still wouldn't suggest kids to read it)
Genre : drama, romance
Summary : Ohno and Aiba are best friends for the longest time now. They've always been together and did everything together, always had the same passions and interests. When Aiba discovers the only thing that it seems like they don't have in common, he decides he needs to find some more of it. He doesn't expect to find the love of his life in doing so.
Disclaimer : None of us own Arashi. Though we'd both like to XD
A/N : Since in the story I wrote with sakura_hime1212, Love is Stronger Than Pain, we gave BDSM a pretty horrible and untrue notion, I decided to make this story which will show the real BDSM life and how it actually is beautiful and plesent if you have with it needs for it. And lovu_lovu_aiba was adorable enough to agree to help me with it ^^ So that is why I say, it won't be exactly the story I'd let my kids read. And it will sure be the story my parents will NEVER know I wrote XDD
Chapter 16
"Sho, really, calm down…" Jun slowly said, in a try of making his friend relax.
The man was drinking a big glass of whiskey, while sitting on the couch from the living-room of Jun's house. His leg was shaking nervously as he was staring in an empty point. He looked quite insane. Jun understood Sho since he knew the reason behind his anger. It had nothing to do with Ryosuke or the fact that Nino fucked him. Sho didn't felt like he was cheated. And he couldn't care less about what happened to that child that he knew almost nothing about. The real problem was inside him. Very deep and very back… Back when Sho was a child…
"I know it triggered you bad memories, but Ryosuke is not so little anymore. He is 17, he will be 18 next year. Beside, he lost his virginity when he was 13. And anyway, do you think I bought him to look at him? I was planning to fuck him too, Sho." Jun said.
"It does not matter. You had all your right to do it, you are his damn master!" Sho said, still sounding and feeling annoyed.
"Ryosuke said it was his fault. He likes Ninomiya, even an idiot could see that. I am almost sure he was the one who started all this. He probably pushed Ninomiya into it." Jun continued, trying to maintain his calm. "Don't punish the poor boy for no reason. At least listen to him before you do it."
"I don't wanna listen. I don't care. Even if Ryosuke pushed him, he is a fucking ADULT!! What the Hell was in his damn mind?? I will crush him so hard, you won't recognise him when you see him next time." Sho said, squeezing the glass in his hand so hard that it almost broke.
"Don't be an idiot!" Jun said, loud, making Sho raise his head to look at him.
"Why do you care anyway? He is not your damn friend or anything!" Sho said, letting the glass down and getting up.
"He is not. But you are! You are not being yourself, Sho. This is not you! You are a soft master. Slaves adore you cause you are kinky but kind, you listen to them and treat them with love, you make them adore adoring you. That is the Master Sakurai everyone knows in the BDSM community… I know the scars you have inside, I realise it hurts… But Ninomiya doesn't know about it and is not his fault that what he did remembered you of that!" Jun said, almost screaming, trying to make the older man understand what he meant. He went closer to him, pasting his body to him as he hugged him. He caressed his back slowly, holding him tight. "You are the best friend I ever had, Sho… I don't want to see you loosing yourself. This is not who you are… Don't do something that you will regret…"
Sho hugged him back but didn't said anything. He just hold Jun as strong as he could. The two of them being masters, they almost never acted this way, though they loved each other as much as Satoshi and Masaki. They had been friends for what seemed like forever and Jun was the only person who knew everything about Sho. His complete personality, his dreams, his desires, his entire past… Sho something thought that not even he knew himself as much as Jun did. His friend was right… He was letting the anger take over him. This was not who he was…
Nino, Masaki and Satoshi entered the room. They remained amazed when they saw Jun and Sho hugging, but didn't said a word. After staring at them for few seconds, they all 3 left their heads down, paralysing in that spot and waiting. Masters are not loving with each other. They don't show emotions or weaknesses, since they have to keep their "I-am-perfect-and-strong" mask. Even if Sho and Jun were friends, it was still a bit unusual.
Sho gently pushed Jun away when he realised the boys have entered, and made few steps back. He stared at Nino who looked back at him for a second, before letting his head down fast. Masaki looked at Nino and then at Sho, feeling scared and sad for his friend. Nino had suffered enough and he didn't deserved more pain, Masaki thought. But he did not dare to speak. Sho was pissed and it was something he had never seen before.
"We are going home…" Sho announced. "Come on."
Masaki turned to look at Satoshi. The older man smiled to him and caressed his hair, giving him a kiss on the forehead. "It will be fine… Go." he whispered to him slowly.
Masaki smiled back at Satoshi and took Nino's hand in his. They both made a bow in front of Jun, before leaving the house together with their master. Satoshi sinked in the couch, covering his face with his hands.
"Each day of our life is like a new adventure…" he said.
"It is indeed…" Jun agreed. "Too much adrenaline…"
"If this was a movie, we would all be happy at the end, right?" Satoshi asked, looking at his master.
"Not if is a drama movie…" Jun said. "Sho's childhood is a drama movie… His past will one day swallow him…."
"What are you talking about..?" Satoshi asked confused.
"Nothing… I will go talk to Ryo. Stay here, I will be right back…" Jun said, before going upstairs.
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Masaki held Nino's hand in his during the entire road with the car, his grip growing as they were approaching the house. It was as if he was the one who was about to get punished, not Nino. He was feeling terrified at the thought of what Sho would be able to do while angry. After what had happened the previous night, Masaki had no more doubts that Sho was able to be hardcore as well. He was also sure that he hadn't seen not even 10% of what Sho was capable to do. He had said this punishment was not going to be a kink so he was serious. Masaki didn't exactly wanted to see Sho serious…
Nino was only staring out to the window, watch all the buildings fly by in front of him, feeling lost. He was somehow scared but that was not the problem. When he deserved to be punished, he was accepting it all. But this time he didn't feel like he did something bad… He didn't do anything bad. He just wanted to make Ryosuke happy… He at least wished Sho would listen to him, that he would let him explain… But he didn't, which made him feel as if he really was with his american master once again.
Masaki squeezed Nino's hand a bit harder, which made the younger man turn his head from the window to look at him. Masaki smiled and left his head on Nino's shoulder, caressing his arm in a encouraging way. Nino smiled too, starting to caress Masaki's head, kissing his cheek.
"Thank you…" he whispered in Masaki's ear.
The older one just kissed him one more time as a response and kept staying there. Sho was watching them in the mirror of the car. Masaki was sure feeling scared and worried for Nino, he could see that. What if Nino really wasn't guilty..? Maybe he didn't deserved a really hardcore punishment.. Maybe he deserved no punishment at all. Yet why Sho felt this need to punish him? His head was hurting… His mind was speeding… He didn't knew what to do…
He parked the car in front of the house and got out of it, telling his slaves to get out as well. When he was in front of the door though, a girl rushed out of her car, her black hair blowing in the wind. She hugged Sho tight and started to cry. Sho looked at her amazed for a second, before hugging her back.
"Mai.. What happened?" he asked, caressing her head. "Shh… Calm down… What is it?"
"Can I stay with you tonight..? Please… I promise I won't disturb…" she asked, her voice shaking, looking at Masaki and Nino. "But if you are busy…"
"I am not busy at all. Come on, get inside…" Sho said, opening the front door.
He made a sign with his head to Masaki and Nino to enter as well, while he was guiding him sister through the door. Masaki remembered Sho's sister from the first time he met her and by the way Nino was staring he could tell that his friend knew her as well. They both could't help but wonder what happened to bring the woman in such a state. He knew it was not their time nor their duty to speak, so they just fallowed their master into the living-room.
Sho took his sister's jacket off and placed it next to him on the couch. Mai was still crying and Sho kept caressing her back. "What happened, Mai? Tell me…"
"Well…" she started but then looked at Masaki and Nino, who were sitting on the floor looking at her.
"Is fine. They are my slaves, I have trust in them." Sho said, letting her know she could talk.
"I sometimes can't understand how you can do this…" Mai said, her voice still shaking from crying.
"Do what?" Sho asked confused.
"Be a master..? After all that has happened in our past… Because of him… Do you never feel bad?" Mai asked, looking into her brother's eyes.
Masaki and Nino were turning their head from Mai to Sho, curious to find out what the girl was talking about. It was as if they were trying to solve a big and complicated puzzle so they were paying attention to every word and making a kind of a sketch in their minds. Sho looked back at his sister after listening her words, before letting his head down and staring at the floor, looking as if something upset him.
"I will never be like him…" he said.
"I know you won't… You know I could never think that…" she said, putting her hand on his cheek to turn his head back to look at her. "You are a good man… You were always a good and brave man, Sho…"
"Mai… Tell me what happened…" Sho asked once more.
"My fiancee left in a business trip yesterday… My friends were all busy and I tried to call you but your phone was closed… So I had no choice but to go to mom and dad's house…" She started explaining.
"Couldn't you have stayed in your house without him there?" Masaki found himself asking out loud, the story seeming way too interesting and taking him over.
"She has a mental trauma from when she was 14 years old. She can not stay alone. Anywhere. She needs someone to be with her 24 hours a day. Not necessarily stuck to her, like hugging her all day long, but just being there. If she is completely alone somewhere, she has a big panic attack that can result into a major mental break down." Sho explained, so his slaves would understand.
"Wow…" Nino and Masaki said both together.
"So you went to them. Something happened there?" Sho continued asking.
"I arrived there and they were fighting…." Mai said.
"Great…." Sho said, letting his head down.
"But that is not all…" Mai continued. "I was planning to stay but… He came…"
"What..?" Sho said amazed.
"Yeah… Father had invited him… They wanted to talk about something…As soon as I saw him, it was as if the whole world came crushing down in my head… So I left fast… And I came here but you were not home… So I waited in my car for you to come.." She explained. "I… I remembered it all, Sho… In those few seconds, everything came back…"
"Mai…" Sho said, hugging her tight. "Is okay, sis… I would have reacted the same…"
Mai started crying again and Sho just kept hugging her, caressing her back slowly, in a loving and understanding way. Masaki and Nino were watching like idiots, not knowing what to say. They didn't understood anything. Who came? Why was Mai so scared? What did she remembered? Why Sho looked like he was about to start crying too?
"You never told them, right..?" Mai asked, remarking how confused Masaki and Nino looked.
"No… Jun is the only one who knows…" Sho said, looking at his slaves. "When we were children, our life has been a true nightmare. Our parents were always fighting over something. They would start a fight even for the most random stuff. Our dad would start throwing stuff away, making scandals and sometimes hit our mother. But it wouldn't have been so bad if it wasn't for him… Uncle Akira… Even his name makes us sick. That is why we always just call him 'him'.." Sho said.
"What did he do..?" Masaki asked, curious.
"When I was 4 years old and Sho was 7, he moved in our house… He is our dad's older brother. We had never seen him before until that day and we were quite anxious and happy. You know… children usually love their uncle… We expected him to play with us and we even have hopes of him making mom and dad fight less…" Mai said.
"It was not like that… From the very first day we met him, he looked at us ugly and told us he hates children. We realised he was not a kind and loving man so we tried our best to be good children. But he still founded reasons to be angry on us…" Sho continued what Mai has started, while holding her hand strong. "He started by just hitting us and screaming at us… Few slaps today, few punches tomorrow… Until he got to kicks, belts… Soon he was filling us of blood on a daily basic…"
"That is horrible…" Masaki said.
"How about your parents? Didn't they do anything about it?" Nino asked.
Mai and Sho laughed, in a sad way. "Do you actually believe they cared..? They were too busy fighting with each other… Sometimes, I think they even forgot we were there." Mai said.
"The man succeeded to traumatise us both into the worse degree. By the time I was 17, I was cutting myself just to feel alive… I remained home until I was 21, to wait for Mai to finish highscool.. When she did, we both left together… We moved out. I got into a company, she got into college… I started being interest in BDSM, I became a master… Me and my sister have been treated as slaves by our uncle. That is why I am a soft master… I like slaves… I want to make them happy… Feel protected and secure and loved… Like I never actually felt…"
"I love you, master…" Masaki said, going closer to Sho and hugging his left leg. "I will always love you…"
"I know, Masaki…" Sho said, caressing his hair. "Thank you…" He looked at Nino and sadly smiled. The younger man left his head down, still feeling a bit scared of Sho. "Come here, Kazu…"
Nino went slowly closer to Sho and stand next to Masaki on the floor in front of him, staring up at him. "I am sorry I screamed at you like that and scared you… I was not mad on you or on Ryosuke. Is just that… Seeing you with him there in bed, it… it remembered me of…" he tried to say but couldn't finish his sentence.
"Say it…" Maki said. She was holding Sho's arm with both her hands, looking up at him. Tears were still falling down her pale face. "Uncle Akira raped him… Many many times… From when he was 13 years old…"
"Holly fuck…" Nino said, his mouth opening in amazement. "M-Master…"
Sho closed his eyes, tears falling down his face, being unable to keep them in anymore. Nino finally realised what he had done by having sex with Ryo. He made Sho remember all those things… He knew Sho hated men who were having sex with children, he had told him that long ago. But he didn't knew this was the reason…
"I am so sorry, master… I am so sorry… Punish me. Punish me as hard as you want…" Nino said, feeling about to start to cry as well.
"No, Kazu… I don't wanna punish you… It was not your fault…" Sho said, kissing his forehead.
He bend down and hugged them both. Masaki and Nino started to cry, feeling completely unable to stop themselves. Knowing that something so horrible and terrifying has happened to their beloved master crushed them… It was as a knife going straight in their heart. It was not as if they pity him. They just felt hurt… When there is real love in between people, one's pain is the other's pain as well… Mai left her head rest on Sho's back, hugging her brother from behind.
"Do you remember when we were little, Sho… You used to sing to me that song when we were sad…" she said.
"Yeah… 'By the same mother we have both been born… In the same corner we've both been crying torn.. You in the left side, me in the right.. How cruel it is this life… It's cutting my heart like a knife…' " Sho sang slowly, still holding Masaki and Nino, feeling his sister's warm embrace and hot tears on his face.
"Yes… 'You have always helped me, protected me from strife.. I will never let you alone as long as I'm alive… Even my days and my soul, if you need them you should know, I would give them to you, brother, in a second..' " she continued the song, holding Sho even stronger. "Funny… we used to sing this when we were 7,8 years old… we never forgot it…"
"Is always funny what kind of memories remain to us from childhood… I have no idea when exactly did I learned to read and write… But I know for sure the exact year, month, day, hour and minute when he raped me the first time…" Sho said, staring in a empty point.
"Master… Don't think of that… We are here, you'll never be alone…" Masaki said.
"I know… With you 3 in my life and Jun, I know I can survive this pain…" Sho said, smiling through the tears that didn't stopped falling.
A/N: Well yeah, that is all! I wanted to punish Nino but since I am the drama queen…. XDDD No, is just that I woke up with this idea in my head. And I wrote it down. Yeah, I am weird like that XDD Though I do have a writing plan, I end up just writing what comes in my mind on the spot. Hope you'll like it. As always, comments are loved <333 See you around ^-^
Author : me and lovu_lovu_aiba
Pairings : Sakuraiba, Juntoshi, will have some Sakumiya later on
Rating : +17, NC (it won't be hardcore but I still wouldn't suggest kids to read it)
Genre : drama, romance
Summary : Ohno and Aiba are best friends for the longest time now. They've always been together and did everything together, always had the same passions and interests. When Aiba discovers the only thing that it seems like they don't have in common, he decides he needs to find some more of it. He doesn't expect to find the love of his life in doing so.
Disclaimer : None of us own Arashi. Though we'd both like to XD
A/N : Since in the story I wrote with sakura_hime1212, Love is Stronger Than Pain, we gave BDSM a pretty horrible and untrue notion, I decided to make this story which will show the real BDSM life and how it actually is beautiful and plesent if you have with it needs for it. And lovu_lovu_aiba was adorable enough to agree to help me with it ^^ So that is why I say, it won't be exactly the story I'd let my kids read. And it will sure be the story my parents will NEVER know I wrote XDD
Chapter 16
"Sho, really, calm down…" Jun slowly said, in a try of making his friend relax.
The man was drinking a big glass of whiskey, while sitting on the couch from the living-room of Jun's house. His leg was shaking nervously as he was staring in an empty point. He looked quite insane. Jun understood Sho since he knew the reason behind his anger. It had nothing to do with Ryosuke or the fact that Nino fucked him. Sho didn't felt like he was cheated. And he couldn't care less about what happened to that child that he knew almost nothing about. The real problem was inside him. Very deep and very back… Back when Sho was a child…
"I know it triggered you bad memories, but Ryosuke is not so little anymore. He is 17, he will be 18 next year. Beside, he lost his virginity when he was 13. And anyway, do you think I bought him to look at him? I was planning to fuck him too, Sho." Jun said.
"It does not matter. You had all your right to do it, you are his damn master!" Sho said, still sounding and feeling annoyed.
"Ryosuke said it was his fault. He likes Ninomiya, even an idiot could see that. I am almost sure he was the one who started all this. He probably pushed Ninomiya into it." Jun continued, trying to maintain his calm. "Don't punish the poor boy for no reason. At least listen to him before you do it."
"I don't wanna listen. I don't care. Even if Ryosuke pushed him, he is a fucking ADULT!! What the Hell was in his damn mind?? I will crush him so hard, you won't recognise him when you see him next time." Sho said, squeezing the glass in his hand so hard that it almost broke.
"Don't be an idiot!" Jun said, loud, making Sho raise his head to look at him.
"Why do you care anyway? He is not your damn friend or anything!" Sho said, letting the glass down and getting up.
"He is not. But you are! You are not being yourself, Sho. This is not you! You are a soft master. Slaves adore you cause you are kinky but kind, you listen to them and treat them with love, you make them adore adoring you. That is the Master Sakurai everyone knows in the BDSM community… I know the scars you have inside, I realise it hurts… But Ninomiya doesn't know about it and is not his fault that what he did remembered you of that!" Jun said, almost screaming, trying to make the older man understand what he meant. He went closer to him, pasting his body to him as he hugged him. He caressed his back slowly, holding him tight. "You are the best friend I ever had, Sho… I don't want to see you loosing yourself. This is not who you are… Don't do something that you will regret…"
Sho hugged him back but didn't said anything. He just hold Jun as strong as he could. The two of them being masters, they almost never acted this way, though they loved each other as much as Satoshi and Masaki. They had been friends for what seemed like forever and Jun was the only person who knew everything about Sho. His complete personality, his dreams, his desires, his entire past… Sho something thought that not even he knew himself as much as Jun did. His friend was right… He was letting the anger take over him. This was not who he was…
Nino, Masaki and Satoshi entered the room. They remained amazed when they saw Jun and Sho hugging, but didn't said a word. After staring at them for few seconds, they all 3 left their heads down, paralysing in that spot and waiting. Masters are not loving with each other. They don't show emotions or weaknesses, since they have to keep their "I-am-perfect-and-strong" mask. Even if Sho and Jun were friends, it was still a bit unusual.
Sho gently pushed Jun away when he realised the boys have entered, and made few steps back. He stared at Nino who looked back at him for a second, before letting his head down fast. Masaki looked at Nino and then at Sho, feeling scared and sad for his friend. Nino had suffered enough and he didn't deserved more pain, Masaki thought. But he did not dare to speak. Sho was pissed and it was something he had never seen before.
"We are going home…" Sho announced. "Come on."
Masaki turned to look at Satoshi. The older man smiled to him and caressed his hair, giving him a kiss on the forehead. "It will be fine… Go." he whispered to him slowly.
Masaki smiled back at Satoshi and took Nino's hand in his. They both made a bow in front of Jun, before leaving the house together with their master. Satoshi sinked in the couch, covering his face with his hands.
"Each day of our life is like a new adventure…" he said.
"It is indeed…" Jun agreed. "Too much adrenaline…"
"If this was a movie, we would all be happy at the end, right?" Satoshi asked, looking at his master.
"Not if is a drama movie…" Jun said. "Sho's childhood is a drama movie… His past will one day swallow him…."
"What are you talking about..?" Satoshi asked confused.
"Nothing… I will go talk to Ryo. Stay here, I will be right back…" Jun said, before going upstairs.
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Masaki held Nino's hand in his during the entire road with the car, his grip growing as they were approaching the house. It was as if he was the one who was about to get punished, not Nino. He was feeling terrified at the thought of what Sho would be able to do while angry. After what had happened the previous night, Masaki had no more doubts that Sho was able to be hardcore as well. He was also sure that he hadn't seen not even 10% of what Sho was capable to do. He had said this punishment was not going to be a kink so he was serious. Masaki didn't exactly wanted to see Sho serious…
Nino was only staring out to the window, watch all the buildings fly by in front of him, feeling lost. He was somehow scared but that was not the problem. When he deserved to be punished, he was accepting it all. But this time he didn't feel like he did something bad… He didn't do anything bad. He just wanted to make Ryosuke happy… He at least wished Sho would listen to him, that he would let him explain… But he didn't, which made him feel as if he really was with his american master once again.
Masaki squeezed Nino's hand a bit harder, which made the younger man turn his head from the window to look at him. Masaki smiled and left his head on Nino's shoulder, caressing his arm in a encouraging way. Nino smiled too, starting to caress Masaki's head, kissing his cheek.
"Thank you…" he whispered in Masaki's ear.
The older one just kissed him one more time as a response and kept staying there. Sho was watching them in the mirror of the car. Masaki was sure feeling scared and worried for Nino, he could see that. What if Nino really wasn't guilty..? Maybe he didn't deserved a really hardcore punishment.. Maybe he deserved no punishment at all. Yet why Sho felt this need to punish him? His head was hurting… His mind was speeding… He didn't knew what to do…
He parked the car in front of the house and got out of it, telling his slaves to get out as well. When he was in front of the door though, a girl rushed out of her car, her black hair blowing in the wind. She hugged Sho tight and started to cry. Sho looked at her amazed for a second, before hugging her back.
"Mai.. What happened?" he asked, caressing her head. "Shh… Calm down… What is it?"
"Can I stay with you tonight..? Please… I promise I won't disturb…" she asked, her voice shaking, looking at Masaki and Nino. "But if you are busy…"
"I am not busy at all. Come on, get inside…" Sho said, opening the front door.
He made a sign with his head to Masaki and Nino to enter as well, while he was guiding him sister through the door. Masaki remembered Sho's sister from the first time he met her and by the way Nino was staring he could tell that his friend knew her as well. They both could't help but wonder what happened to bring the woman in such a state. He knew it was not their time nor their duty to speak, so they just fallowed their master into the living-room.
Sho took his sister's jacket off and placed it next to him on the couch. Mai was still crying and Sho kept caressing her back. "What happened, Mai? Tell me…"
"Well…" she started but then looked at Masaki and Nino, who were sitting on the floor looking at her.
"Is fine. They are my slaves, I have trust in them." Sho said, letting her know she could talk.
"I sometimes can't understand how you can do this…" Mai said, her voice still shaking from crying.
"Do what?" Sho asked confused.
"Be a master..? After all that has happened in our past… Because of him… Do you never feel bad?" Mai asked, looking into her brother's eyes.
Masaki and Nino were turning their head from Mai to Sho, curious to find out what the girl was talking about. It was as if they were trying to solve a big and complicated puzzle so they were paying attention to every word and making a kind of a sketch in their minds. Sho looked back at his sister after listening her words, before letting his head down and staring at the floor, looking as if something upset him.
"I will never be like him…" he said.
"I know you won't… You know I could never think that…" she said, putting her hand on his cheek to turn his head back to look at her. "You are a good man… You were always a good and brave man, Sho…"
"Mai… Tell me what happened…" Sho asked once more.
"My fiancee left in a business trip yesterday… My friends were all busy and I tried to call you but your phone was closed… So I had no choice but to go to mom and dad's house…" She started explaining.
"Couldn't you have stayed in your house without him there?" Masaki found himself asking out loud, the story seeming way too interesting and taking him over.
"She has a mental trauma from when she was 14 years old. She can not stay alone. Anywhere. She needs someone to be with her 24 hours a day. Not necessarily stuck to her, like hugging her all day long, but just being there. If she is completely alone somewhere, she has a big panic attack that can result into a major mental break down." Sho explained, so his slaves would understand.
"Wow…" Nino and Masaki said both together.
"So you went to them. Something happened there?" Sho continued asking.
"I arrived there and they were fighting…." Mai said.
"Great…." Sho said, letting his head down.
"But that is not all…" Mai continued. "I was planning to stay but… He came…"
"What..?" Sho said amazed.
"Yeah… Father had invited him… They wanted to talk about something…As soon as I saw him, it was as if the whole world came crushing down in my head… So I left fast… And I came here but you were not home… So I waited in my car for you to come.." She explained. "I… I remembered it all, Sho… In those few seconds, everything came back…"
"Mai…" Sho said, hugging her tight. "Is okay, sis… I would have reacted the same…"
Mai started crying again and Sho just kept hugging her, caressing her back slowly, in a loving and understanding way. Masaki and Nino were watching like idiots, not knowing what to say. They didn't understood anything. Who came? Why was Mai so scared? What did she remembered? Why Sho looked like he was about to start crying too?
"You never told them, right..?" Mai asked, remarking how confused Masaki and Nino looked.
"No… Jun is the only one who knows…" Sho said, looking at his slaves. "When we were children, our life has been a true nightmare. Our parents were always fighting over something. They would start a fight even for the most random stuff. Our dad would start throwing stuff away, making scandals and sometimes hit our mother. But it wouldn't have been so bad if it wasn't for him… Uncle Akira… Even his name makes us sick. That is why we always just call him 'him'.." Sho said.
"What did he do..?" Masaki asked, curious.
"When I was 4 years old and Sho was 7, he moved in our house… He is our dad's older brother. We had never seen him before until that day and we were quite anxious and happy. You know… children usually love their uncle… We expected him to play with us and we even have hopes of him making mom and dad fight less…" Mai said.
"It was not like that… From the very first day we met him, he looked at us ugly and told us he hates children. We realised he was not a kind and loving man so we tried our best to be good children. But he still founded reasons to be angry on us…" Sho continued what Mai has started, while holding her hand strong. "He started by just hitting us and screaming at us… Few slaps today, few punches tomorrow… Until he got to kicks, belts… Soon he was filling us of blood on a daily basic…"
"That is horrible…" Masaki said.
"How about your parents? Didn't they do anything about it?" Nino asked.
Mai and Sho laughed, in a sad way. "Do you actually believe they cared..? They were too busy fighting with each other… Sometimes, I think they even forgot we were there." Mai said.
"The man succeeded to traumatise us both into the worse degree. By the time I was 17, I was cutting myself just to feel alive… I remained home until I was 21, to wait for Mai to finish highscool.. When she did, we both left together… We moved out. I got into a company, she got into college… I started being interest in BDSM, I became a master… Me and my sister have been treated as slaves by our uncle. That is why I am a soft master… I like slaves… I want to make them happy… Feel protected and secure and loved… Like I never actually felt…"
"I love you, master…" Masaki said, going closer to Sho and hugging his left leg. "I will always love you…"
"I know, Masaki…" Sho said, caressing his hair. "Thank you…" He looked at Nino and sadly smiled. The younger man left his head down, still feeling a bit scared of Sho. "Come here, Kazu…"
Nino went slowly closer to Sho and stand next to Masaki on the floor in front of him, staring up at him. "I am sorry I screamed at you like that and scared you… I was not mad on you or on Ryosuke. Is just that… Seeing you with him there in bed, it… it remembered me of…" he tried to say but couldn't finish his sentence.
"Say it…" Maki said. She was holding Sho's arm with both her hands, looking up at him. Tears were still falling down her pale face. "Uncle Akira raped him… Many many times… From when he was 13 years old…"
"Holly fuck…" Nino said, his mouth opening in amazement. "M-Master…"
Sho closed his eyes, tears falling down his face, being unable to keep them in anymore. Nino finally realised what he had done by having sex with Ryo. He made Sho remember all those things… He knew Sho hated men who were having sex with children, he had told him that long ago. But he didn't knew this was the reason…
"I am so sorry, master… I am so sorry… Punish me. Punish me as hard as you want…" Nino said, feeling about to start to cry as well.
"No, Kazu… I don't wanna punish you… It was not your fault…" Sho said, kissing his forehead.
He bend down and hugged them both. Masaki and Nino started to cry, feeling completely unable to stop themselves. Knowing that something so horrible and terrifying has happened to their beloved master crushed them… It was as a knife going straight in their heart. It was not as if they pity him. They just felt hurt… When there is real love in between people, one's pain is the other's pain as well… Mai left her head rest on Sho's back, hugging her brother from behind.
"Do you remember when we were little, Sho… You used to sing to me that song when we were sad…" she said.
"Yeah… 'By the same mother we have both been born… In the same corner we've both been crying torn.. You in the left side, me in the right.. How cruel it is this life… It's cutting my heart like a knife…' " Sho sang slowly, still holding Masaki and Nino, feeling his sister's warm embrace and hot tears on his face.
"Yes… 'You have always helped me, protected me from strife.. I will never let you alone as long as I'm alive… Even my days and my soul, if you need them you should know, I would give them to you, brother, in a second..' " she continued the song, holding Sho even stronger. "Funny… we used to sing this when we were 7,8 years old… we never forgot it…"
"Is always funny what kind of memories remain to us from childhood… I have no idea when exactly did I learned to read and write… But I know for sure the exact year, month, day, hour and minute when he raped me the first time…" Sho said, staring in a empty point.
"Master… Don't think of that… We are here, you'll never be alone…" Masaki said.
"I know… With you 3 in my life and Jun, I know I can survive this pain…" Sho said, smiling through the tears that didn't stopped falling.
A/N: Well yeah, that is all! I wanted to punish Nino but since I am the drama queen…. XDDD No, is just that I woke up with this idea in my head. And I wrote it down. Yeah, I am weird like that XDD Though I do have a writing plan, I end up just writing what comes in my mind on the spot. Hope you'll like it. As always, comments are loved <333 See you around ^-^