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I'm sorry but this post is going to suck. It's serious in tone, lame, about friends, all that bullshit.
And just as a warning. Don't click on the link if you're afraid of me telling you something you might not want to hear.
-First and foremost. Chad versus Del. This shit is bothering all of us, and I am merely a bystander when you come to think about how long the rest of the guys have been hanging around with you all. But still, you guys still are my friends, and this shit IS getting to me.
Perhaps unfairly I really have to "side." It's impossible not to sway either way. Any of you who say you are not siding with anyone are really just keeping your feelings to yourselves. Jon did a very good job at getting his thoughts out and I commend him for stepping up for his brother.
Del, I have not known for any real amount of time, and have only hung out with him twice. We get along just fine, and I think he's a good guy. But what he is doing to Chad is really pissing me off. They have been best friends for so long, and how anybody can just up and say "I don't like my best friend anymore so too bad he's not anymore" is absolute lunacy in my eyes. I think Del has his reasons to just suddenly not want to be close with Chad anymmore. But the fact that he will never just fucking tell Chad makes me think even more that Del is being even more of a jackass. It is completely immature to just up and walk away from something that was once so valued. Over what? A fucking cigar? That is the ONLY thing that I have experienced that Del could take as "bad." And honestly, I HOPE there is more, and I definitely trust there would be. But listen Del you can't expect others to hold the same moral standards as you do. I speak of this one incident only, because I have nothing else to go on. LET IT GO. So whatever else your problem is, fucking sort it out and be a mature grown up man about it. You don't need to go with some teary eyed pussy apology. For christ sake, give Chad the respect to at least go off on him about it. Yell at him, swear at him, FUCKING FIGHT HIM! It doesn't matter just don't leave him guessing it's not fair, and you know he would NEVER do that to you either.
After all of this, I don't think your friendship could be strong as it once was. But have some dignity in your feelings. Chad although at times harsh, pissy, and "mean" will at least be honest. I've heard nothing but cries for help from Chad about this, and have seen nothing from you Del. And here I am, perhaps in the right, perhaps in the wrong, telling you to stand up and face it.
-Durkin.
For real, I've really started enjoying hanging out with you again. The filming was so much fun with you, and you were hillarious. Honestly for a while I couldn't be around you anymore, because you were turning into everything I hated about Amanda. I understand more of the personal shit you have when stressing about stuff, but when people stress about shit like writing a book report, it pisses me off to no end. Just remember, there is more to life than school, and "I'm doing some homework" should NEVER be used as an excuse to NOT go out on a saturday. I can't wait to the movie is done and you're welcome to party up with me any time at SNHU.
-Mike
Me and you are sometimes alike which causes problems. When you don't listen to me, and ask me the same questions over and over, YES I get pissed. Like that night at brandons when I explained rummy to you and I counted how many times it took me to explain to you that a run was four in a row of the same suit. And you asked 5 times. Yes thats why I get pissed and use that well known tone that I am so accostumed too.
But we've always had fun, and I've been there for you with everything. When you were completely up in the air with what to do with Sam, I told you right out front that you should always follow what your heart feels and you listened. Now you and her are so happy and even though we think you're nuts when you go down to the cape to see her, it makes me feel good that you're really happy. So when we're both out of college, and you're the expert with the video, and I've come out of school with a BA in creative writing, the movies will continue.
-Laura
I don't know what the hell has happened with me and Laura. Maybe it's all in my head, but I feel like she's just ignored me for the past week or something. We all get sick of eachother at some point and take a break, but it's weird. It's never happened with us before. She had a fire the other day, and I didn't get a call. She damn well may have called, and if I didn't have service at the time I wouldn't have got it. But no IM or text or call. I found that really strange. She hasn't called me to come over and just hang out, nor has she even IMed me lately. I myself have not called her, but usually it's always her calling me.
I miss the times before battle of the bands, when the VIP's were always together, always partying and having a good time. Times are so much different from that now. I really had an interest in Kara. She loved the bruins, she was a nirvana fan, she was beautiful, her sense of humor was great, she laughed at everything I said, and her personality was one of the best I had ever seen in anyone. I was tentative to act on it becuase of the looming threat of college, but I made small advances. But everytime I tried to make any sort of move, I always got the most bizzare mixed signals. I can't really explain, but to me in my only fitting scenario was, that she too was interested but also was tentative. There came a certain point where it seemed that in the most probable situation, nothing would ever happen and I moved on. This is when I met Kristen. Kara then became detatched from me, and eventually told me off. She said some shit that really hurt me and from there on out we haven't spoken. I've said a total of about 10 words to her since then in person. Honestly I don't think she even cares, and even worse I don't even think she knows she hurt me in any way. It's apparent she only cares about herself (and this is from multiple OTHER situations not just mine) and everything I saw in her, was either skewed on my part, or was a total lie.
So after all that things have changed. So Laura... what's the deal? I'm just going to continue to sit by idle because I don't know what's going on. You tell me. Maybe I'm getting the wrong impressions.
-Eric
My singular 311 brother. I'm glad you've met someone you can be happy with. If anybody deserves it more than anyone else it is you. I wish you good luck with her. I have nothing to say, because it has all been so good, and we've never once had anything to fight about. I'm glad we're close with college too, and as long as there is still music, we'll always have something to talk about.
-My Entire Band
There is nothing more than I love than my band. But you guys are putting a stress on me way too much. I feel like you guys could care less about us, and think of this as just a hobby and that we will never go anywhere. I don't know if you guys remember the whole producer deal. But this is my ONE shot to break into the industry. I take this with the most seriousness that I can, and I get SO FUCKING angry when you guys can't practice because you won't rearrange your work schedules, or get your licenses. Come on guys, get it together. If you're not in this to be serious, than just do me the favor and tell me. I really want this to work so badly. We're all friends, and we've always hung out. Me and Adam were talking one day about how I hope we can famous enough that we get a van, and eventually a bus. It would be one of the most exciting things to experience. But I have such EXTREME doubt that the rest of you are there for this. Even Albie, and I know you just got ripshit reading that, thinking I doubt your loyalty to the band. But yes I doubt EVERYONE'S loyalty to this. What sucks so much too, is that without any of the orignal members we're fucked. We can't be the same band if one of us were gone. Seriously please sit down and think about what your dedication to the band is and your respective instrument and please let me know.
I'm sorry this was so long and if you were offended, but I only mean everything for the best. Livejournals really shouldn't be taken seriously, but this was a great way for me to get out my serious thoughts and let people see them and discuss. I'm not the best at doing this in person.
And just as a warning. Don't click on the link if you're afraid of me telling you something you might not want to hear.
-First and foremost. Chad versus Del. This shit is bothering all of us, and I am merely a bystander when you come to think about how long the rest of the guys have been hanging around with you all. But still, you guys still are my friends, and this shit IS getting to me.
Perhaps unfairly I really have to "side." It's impossible not to sway either way. Any of you who say you are not siding with anyone are really just keeping your feelings to yourselves. Jon did a very good job at getting his thoughts out and I commend him for stepping up for his brother.
Del, I have not known for any real amount of time, and have only hung out with him twice. We get along just fine, and I think he's a good guy. But what he is doing to Chad is really pissing me off. They have been best friends for so long, and how anybody can just up and say "I don't like my best friend anymore so too bad he's not anymore" is absolute lunacy in my eyes. I think Del has his reasons to just suddenly not want to be close with Chad anymmore. But the fact that he will never just fucking tell Chad makes me think even more that Del is being even more of a jackass. It is completely immature to just up and walk away from something that was once so valued. Over what? A fucking cigar? That is the ONLY thing that I have experienced that Del could take as "bad." And honestly, I HOPE there is more, and I definitely trust there would be. But listen Del you can't expect others to hold the same moral standards as you do. I speak of this one incident only, because I have nothing else to go on. LET IT GO. So whatever else your problem is, fucking sort it out and be a mature grown up man about it. You don't need to go with some teary eyed pussy apology. For christ sake, give Chad the respect to at least go off on him about it. Yell at him, swear at him, FUCKING FIGHT HIM! It doesn't matter just don't leave him guessing it's not fair, and you know he would NEVER do that to you either.
After all of this, I don't think your friendship could be strong as it once was. But have some dignity in your feelings. Chad although at times harsh, pissy, and "mean" will at least be honest. I've heard nothing but cries for help from Chad about this, and have seen nothing from you Del. And here I am, perhaps in the right, perhaps in the wrong, telling you to stand up and face it.
-Durkin.
For real, I've really started enjoying hanging out with you again. The filming was so much fun with you, and you were hillarious. Honestly for a while I couldn't be around you anymore, because you were turning into everything I hated about Amanda. I understand more of the personal shit you have when stressing about stuff, but when people stress about shit like writing a book report, it pisses me off to no end. Just remember, there is more to life than school, and "I'm doing some homework" should NEVER be used as an excuse to NOT go out on a saturday. I can't wait to the movie is done and you're welcome to party up with me any time at SNHU.
-Mike
Me and you are sometimes alike which causes problems. When you don't listen to me, and ask me the same questions over and over, YES I get pissed. Like that night at brandons when I explained rummy to you and I counted how many times it took me to explain to you that a run was four in a row of the same suit. And you asked 5 times. Yes thats why I get pissed and use that well known tone that I am so accostumed too.
But we've always had fun, and I've been there for you with everything. When you were completely up in the air with what to do with Sam, I told you right out front that you should always follow what your heart feels and you listened. Now you and her are so happy and even though we think you're nuts when you go down to the cape to see her, it makes me feel good that you're really happy. So when we're both out of college, and you're the expert with the video, and I've come out of school with a BA in creative writing, the movies will continue.
-Laura
I don't know what the hell has happened with me and Laura. Maybe it's all in my head, but I feel like she's just ignored me for the past week or something. We all get sick of eachother at some point and take a break, but it's weird. It's never happened with us before. She had a fire the other day, and I didn't get a call. She damn well may have called, and if I didn't have service at the time I wouldn't have got it. But no IM or text or call. I found that really strange. She hasn't called me to come over and just hang out, nor has she even IMed me lately. I myself have not called her, but usually it's always her calling me.
I miss the times before battle of the bands, when the VIP's were always together, always partying and having a good time. Times are so much different from that now. I really had an interest in Kara. She loved the bruins, she was a nirvana fan, she was beautiful, her sense of humor was great, she laughed at everything I said, and her personality was one of the best I had ever seen in anyone. I was tentative to act on it becuase of the looming threat of college, but I made small advances. But everytime I tried to make any sort of move, I always got the most bizzare mixed signals. I can't really explain, but to me in my only fitting scenario was, that she too was interested but also was tentative. There came a certain point where it seemed that in the most probable situation, nothing would ever happen and I moved on. This is when I met Kristen. Kara then became detatched from me, and eventually told me off. She said some shit that really hurt me and from there on out we haven't spoken. I've said a total of about 10 words to her since then in person. Honestly I don't think she even cares, and even worse I don't even think she knows she hurt me in any way. It's apparent she only cares about herself (and this is from multiple OTHER situations not just mine) and everything I saw in her, was either skewed on my part, or was a total lie.
So after all that things have changed. So Laura... what's the deal? I'm just going to continue to sit by idle because I don't know what's going on. You tell me. Maybe I'm getting the wrong impressions.
-Eric
My singular 311 brother. I'm glad you've met someone you can be happy with. If anybody deserves it more than anyone else it is you. I wish you good luck with her. I have nothing to say, because it has all been so good, and we've never once had anything to fight about. I'm glad we're close with college too, and as long as there is still music, we'll always have something to talk about.
-My Entire Band
There is nothing more than I love than my band. But you guys are putting a stress on me way too much. I feel like you guys could care less about us, and think of this as just a hobby and that we will never go anywhere. I don't know if you guys remember the whole producer deal. But this is my ONE shot to break into the industry. I take this with the most seriousness that I can, and I get SO FUCKING angry when you guys can't practice because you won't rearrange your work schedules, or get your licenses. Come on guys, get it together. If you're not in this to be serious, than just do me the favor and tell me. I really want this to work so badly. We're all friends, and we've always hung out. Me and Adam were talking one day about how I hope we can famous enough that we get a van, and eventually a bus. It would be one of the most exciting things to experience. But I have such EXTREME doubt that the rest of you are there for this. Even Albie, and I know you just got ripshit reading that, thinking I doubt your loyalty to the band. But yes I doubt EVERYONE'S loyalty to this. What sucks so much too, is that without any of the orignal members we're fucked. We can't be the same band if one of us were gone. Seriously please sit down and think about what your dedication to the band is and your respective instrument and please let me know.
I'm sorry this was so long and if you were offended, but I only mean everything for the best. Livejournals really shouldn't be taken seriously, but this was a great way for me to get out my serious thoughts and let people see them and discuss. I'm not the best at doing this in person.