Dear LiveJournal
Oh LiveJournal.... (and LJ friends)
It has been a while.
I am so thankful for friends, health, family and the many amazing adventures I have traveled in the last 40 years. I am proud to have been a support to many people and the smile helping to keep people going.
At this moment, I am feeling blue. I am not upset about the daily pain I feel nor the lack of financial stability I have had in the past, yet... something.... is out of line.
It is not due to my computer being down, though this is a partial catalyst to emotions stirring. I know I am sometimes missing a companion. It has been since 2007 since I have ANY sort of romantic relationship. I did share a kiss a few years ago though.
Perhaps it is also the heat and maybe low BS tolerance. I see the good in people. I have friends that are the same. I am glad my friends are honest and caring. I hear so many stories of horrible people and have witnessed some of these in the past.
Maybe it could be my allergies to my two cute kitties.
Maybe it was too much sugary food and wheat and corn.
Maybe it is the sandman knocking on my door and lately, I have been answering too often.
2012, and partially 2011, has been a well rationed sleep intake. Quite possibly, the most amount of sleep I ever had in my life. It is not a sleep due to depression, but a catch up on rest.
Maybe it is my period.
Maybe my bed is too comfortable and when I am not atop the cloud-like cushions of tempurpedia, I am grouchy on the inside.
Whatever it is... it needs to go.
Sweet Dreams, friends. The air conditioner is calling my name.
So is a large glass of water!
It has been a while.
I am so thankful for friends, health, family and the many amazing adventures I have traveled in the last 40 years. I am proud to have been a support to many people and the smile helping to keep people going.
At this moment, I am feeling blue. I am not upset about the daily pain I feel nor the lack of financial stability I have had in the past, yet... something.... is out of line.
It is not due to my computer being down, though this is a partial catalyst to emotions stirring. I know I am sometimes missing a companion. It has been since 2007 since I have ANY sort of romantic relationship. I did share a kiss a few years ago though.
Perhaps it is also the heat and maybe low BS tolerance. I see the good in people. I have friends that are the same. I am glad my friends are honest and caring. I hear so many stories of horrible people and have witnessed some of these in the past.
Maybe it could be my allergies to my two cute kitties.
Maybe it was too much sugary food and wheat and corn.
Maybe it is the sandman knocking on my door and lately, I have been answering too often.
2012, and partially 2011, has been a well rationed sleep intake. Quite possibly, the most amount of sleep I ever had in my life. It is not a sleep due to depression, but a catch up on rest.
Maybe it is my period.
Maybe my bed is too comfortable and when I am not atop the cloud-like cushions of tempurpedia, I am grouchy on the inside.
Whatever it is... it needs to go.
Sweet Dreams, friends. The air conditioner is calling my name.
So is a large glass of water!