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[shoesiswalkin05]

if everything turns out the way it looks, i'll go pawn my guitar... it's not much, but untuil i start getting job corps allowance, it's the only money i can muster, and money musterings needed. i've got a headache that wont go away, and i wish i was on a bus to sheris house right now, but she doesnt want me to come over. i understand, to me, what i did was a act of passion, but to her it was a crime of passion, and i sexually robbed her. i thought that if i gave her a peice of my body, that maybe she would want the soul attached to it... my blind misinterpritations have pushed me up shit creek again. she doesnt want to be close, and without knowing why i blurted our overreactions. it seems for a year i have been saying and doing the wrong things based on the wrong peices of information. if i haerd tid-bits of a sentence-
i was out- the proper finish would be- with my mom shopping for clothes-
if i didnt hear the last part, my brain fills in with
i was out- drinking w/ jesus.
i'm a fool, and i know that romance make you sick, but i'm a fool in love, and it seems i'm shooting in the dark just to see if i'll hit you, not thinking that a bullet kills. if i can hit her, then i'll know where she is, and the dark around her will illuminate... not thinking that a bullet kills... never thinking of the consequence...
i made some phone calls today, trying to find my father... no luck...
i got accepted into job corps yesterday...