May 23, 2010 17:43
The last two months were all sorts of things: Old hurts seeped through the yet-to-be sealed/healed cracks, doubts taunted my flagging confidence, moods changed quicker than the tides, work had become a supernova on the brink of burnout, and life threw me the meanest curveball--a reminder of the inevitability of death.
In the drama of a tragic moment, we tend to forget that we always gain more than what we lose. Yes, we may have lost loves and loved ones, but we always end up having much more to be thankful for and to cherish.
I had only known Lola O for about the time it takes the earth to circle the sun. But that was enough time for me to feel the lifetime of love that she lavished upon her family. I feel so blessed to have known Lola, and so privileged to be acquainted with such a wonderful and love-filled family. She may have left this corporeal world, but her memory and love will endure. Lola dearest, we are but humble planets and you are our sun--our star. You shall continue to light up our lives.
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We don't know when we'll shuffle off this mortal coil, so why harbor bitterness in one's heart? How can all the feel-good stuff fit then? I've lost loves and loved ones. But there's so much more to life than loss. There's a lot more to celebrate than grieve about. I've met and befriended awesome people, my friendships and relationships have been reinforced, work had never been more rewarding, and happiness abounds! Unexpected (and initially daunting) turns in the road have brought me here, and I couldn't have wished for any other place to be. So, I am purging the lingering anger ang bitterness from my system. I want my heart to be spacious and unclogged, ready to take a heavy two-way traffic. Bring it on, I say! :D
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