I Finally Understand
This weekend/week has been a whirlwind of conflicting emotions. Sadness, happiness, self-loathing, nostalgia, you name it. To make a long story short, it ended with me being incredibly sick and quite a few epiphanies.
For one, I realized, as much as I'd like to believe I'm capable of getting out this soon, I need to stay in Texas for college. At least undergrad school. I got caught up in the mindset that if I don't get out right after high school I never will. But now I know that too much too soon is what will actually end up with me back here. Maybe when fall rolls around I'll be strong and independent enough to know I can make it on my own out of state. But for now, I know I need to stay.
There are a lot of other things I've realized, but for the benefit of the person they involve, I'll refrain from stating them. Suffice it to say, I now know that no matter what happens next everything's going to be okay. That I'll be okay and that he'll be okay. Thank you for helping me even when it hurt you to do so. Thank you for being there for me no matter what. You know who you are, and the things you've done are very much appreciated.
For one, I realized, as much as I'd like to believe I'm capable of getting out this soon, I need to stay in Texas for college. At least undergrad school. I got caught up in the mindset that if I don't get out right after high school I never will. But now I know that too much too soon is what will actually end up with me back here. Maybe when fall rolls around I'll be strong and independent enough to know I can make it on my own out of state. But for now, I know I need to stay.
There are a lot of other things I've realized, but for the benefit of the person they involve, I'll refrain from stating them. Suffice it to say, I now know that no matter what happens next everything's going to be okay. That I'll be okay and that he'll be okay. Thank you for helping me even when it hurt you to do so. Thank you for being there for me no matter what. You know who you are, and the things you've done are very much appreciated.