043 [voice; Japanese]
[It's said very quickly, and quietly, like he's talking to himself. His tone is determined:] I figured out what I'm doing wrong. Maybe it's true that my instincts are bad, my first reaction is to do the opposite of what I'm supposed to. But if that's the case, it can't be helped. Gotta... focus. I'm a bad leader. Just not my nature. Because what it is - not that I can't deal with people, but that I don't like to take the offense. That's the problem. That's why...
But being pacifistic... that's the rule. Avoid harming any life. But it ain't possible. I can't be a pacifist and a Seal... I can't protect people if I don't fight. I can't have things if I don't fight for them. So I'll be defensive... but I won't...
Thinking is my problem. I can't let myself get caught up like that again. [There's a pause of a moment.] I'm sorry for worrying everyone. I briefly got caught up -- I guess it couldn't be helped. But it's behind me again. I just gotta keep moving.
--There aren't any weapons in the inventory. [...] Left, anyway, after that last thing. Aragaki -- [There's a short pause, and then, very deliberately:] --Shinji. Have any spare guns? Figure if anyone does, you would... I'd like to borrow or buy one.
But being pacifistic... that's the rule. Avoid harming any life. But it ain't possible. I can't be a pacifist and a Seal... I can't protect people if I don't fight. I can't have things if I don't fight for them. So I'll be defensive... but I won't...
Thinking is my problem. I can't let myself get caught up like that again. [There's a pause of a moment.] I'm sorry for worrying everyone. I briefly got caught up -- I guess it couldn't be helped. But it's behind me again. I just gotta keep moving.
--There aren't any weapons in the inventory. [...] Left, anyway, after that last thing. Aragaki -- [There's a short pause, and then, very deliberately:] --Shinji. Have any spare guns? Figure if anyone does, you would... I'd like to borrow or buy one.