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The funeral was absolutely miserable. I think the worst part was when Heleana gave his girlfriend Lindsay the Christmas gift that he'd bought for her. Talk about sobbing...Even the guy beside me (his friend from high school) was crying his eyes out.
So, it was suicide. He overdosed on Tylenol, mixed with pain pills. See, they put tylenol with opiates to make drugs like Percocet or Vicodin. Any good addict knows this, and knows that the tylenol will kill you long before the opiate will. For people like us, it's pretty much the devil. He's been in and out of rehab since he was 15, and when it comes to drugs he's a smart motherfucker. I know he never would have taken what he did unless he meant to die, because I wouldn't have done it.
There are ways to get the tylenol out of the pill that are fast and easy, and that I know he used frequently. So when he swallowed his normal amount of opiate without doing that, he also swallowed enough tylenol to kill him. His sister knows it too, but we both feel like it's better if the rest of the family thinks of it as an accident. His mother would die...she's a Catholic, and her bind faith will have her believing her son is in hell now. Truth is, he was in hell before. Now he's just fine.
In a way, it makes me a bit happier about the whole situation. At least he wasn't happy and content and forced to go before his time. At least it was what he wanted. But it makes me even more angry at him.
So, it was suicide. He overdosed on Tylenol, mixed with pain pills. See, they put tylenol with opiates to make drugs like Percocet or Vicodin. Any good addict knows this, and knows that the tylenol will kill you long before the opiate will. For people like us, it's pretty much the devil. He's been in and out of rehab since he was 15, and when it comes to drugs he's a smart motherfucker. I know he never would have taken what he did unless he meant to die, because I wouldn't have done it.
There are ways to get the tylenol out of the pill that are fast and easy, and that I know he used frequently. So when he swallowed his normal amount of opiate without doing that, he also swallowed enough tylenol to kill him. His sister knows it too, but we both feel like it's better if the rest of the family thinks of it as an accident. His mother would die...she's a Catholic, and her bind faith will have her believing her son is in hell now. Truth is, he was in hell before. Now he's just fine.
In a way, it makes me a bit happier about the whole situation. At least he wasn't happy and content and forced to go before his time. At least it was what he wanted. But it makes me even more angry at him.