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I don't think I've been as upset as I am right now. It was a half day today, and after school me and a bunch of people went to Chili's. So yeah.. we eat and then I get home to check my e mail. Jessica was raped. At first I was like "..." then I was hysterical. I can't believe this happened. I think what really pisses me off is that I can't go and be with her; that is all I really want to do right now. I just want to say fuck it to everything and go to NY to be with her. I am so sad, my heart is like broken open. I've just started randomly crying today. I've completely lost all faith in "God". And she told me while it was happening the only thing going through her head was "Why me?" Yes. WHY THE FUCK HER. She didn't deserve that shit. no one does. How could God let this happen? If he loves us, he sure has a funny ass way to show us. And people ask me why I'm not a christian.. how can you put faith in something when you only get hurt in return. That is fucking bullshit. I hate god.