Decision Time..
Today was decision day... no, not *that* decision. Just time to decide what the heck I'm doing with my life.
I came to a conclusion last night, after a brief (but good) conversation with a good friend. I think too much. I analyze everything right down to the last drop. Now, some people might argue that thinking is good - and I agree, to some extent. But when you think so much that you stop feeling.... that's bad.
I realized that that pattern began about two years ago. Makes a lot of sense, in the big picture format. I started thinking so much to avoid feeling - because when I let myself feel, I ended up hurting. By analyzing everything to death, I could miss the details that hurt... which at the time was probably a good thing.
But now - now I'm not so sure. Things have changed a lot in the past two years... and I think I might be ready to start feeling again..
I came to a conclusion last night, after a brief (but good) conversation with a good friend. I think too much. I analyze everything right down to the last drop. Now, some people might argue that thinking is good - and I agree, to some extent. But when you think so much that you stop feeling.... that's bad.
I realized that that pattern began about two years ago. Makes a lot of sense, in the big picture format. I started thinking so much to avoid feeling - because when I let myself feel, I ended up hurting. By analyzing everything to death, I could miss the details that hurt... which at the time was probably a good thing.
But now - now I'm not so sure. Things have changed a lot in the past two years... and I think I might be ready to start feeling again..