A Happy Day
Today may be the first happy day in a long time. For those of you who might not have noticed I have been in a really really bad mood for a couple weeks now. It's really hard having as much free time as I do and so few friends to spend it with. My room has truly become my cave. What few friends I have left around here are constantly busy and I rarely get to see them. Between that and last week being valentines day and black tie, I was feeling extrodinarily lonely. My parents are really not getting along right now at all. My mom wont return my dad's calls and apparently sent him a nasty email about how bad he was treating her, so he is going to give up trying to "date" her, and basically said that the only way that they would ever get back together is if they both work out their individual problems and can work well together. I know my mom feels as lonely, maybe more so than me. She has that huge empty house all to herself. I am glad that she is getting counseling. I need to find some time to just talk with my mom and see how she is doing. She wouldnt answer her phone this weekend when I was up working at the bakery, so I couldnt talk to her then. She sent me a short email this morning saying she was sorry she missed me, but thats about it. My dad really isnt in a whole better of shape. The bakery has been having tons of problems. Everything from the new bag designs to personnel problems. He told me yesterday that it has been almost more than he can handle the last few months. I can tell that he is totally ragged emotionally and physically. He has had to work overnight in the bakery in a addition to all the ownership stuff he has to do. He wanted to go flying yesterday but he said he didnt feel like he was emotionally fit to fly.
But today is going to be a good day. I am not going to let anything get me down today. I am going to bring cookies to band rehearsal. Its time for me to take charge of my own life and help myself. Kat came and visited me yesterday and that was really nice of her to take time out of her busy schedule to just talk for a while. I can't let myself just waste the three months that I have left here. If I don't turn myself around now it might end up being too late. I went running again today and I promise myself that I am going to run every morning now. I need to start feeling good about myself before I can do anything good. Nothing in life is easy, at least nothing that is worth anything. It's time for change. Change for the better.
Cheers to a beautiful day.
But today is going to be a good day. I am not going to let anything get me down today. I am going to bring cookies to band rehearsal. Its time for me to take charge of my own life and help myself. Kat came and visited me yesterday and that was really nice of her to take time out of her busy schedule to just talk for a while. I can't let myself just waste the three months that I have left here. If I don't turn myself around now it might end up being too late. I went running again today and I promise myself that I am going to run every morning now. I need to start feeling good about myself before I can do anything good. Nothing in life is easy, at least nothing that is worth anything. It's time for change. Change for the better.
Cheers to a beautiful day.