friends, and an update of sorts.
I feel as though something needs to be said. And, I feel it needs to be said here in the comforts of livejournal land ... my once overly-used arena for the spilling of guts.
I never expressed the events of a certain breakup in my own words. and with good reason. I know I am above such pointless musing, and feel the past has passed and no use digging up something that was buried long before the deed was done.
what i do feel needs expressing is this:
to those who were "friends" before said event, thank you for your friendship. for those who maintained said friendship, thank you muchly for your continued support and love and knowing when to lend a hand. for those who dropped off the face of the earth, without a word, and went on with their lives, i hope all is well. I wish that you can somehow forgive me for needing space during a trying time and forgive yourselves for not offering a bit of support. I understand, now, how "friendship" works. It works only when it is convenient. and that is a sad truth.
Understand this is coming from a place of quietness and inner reflection, and is more for me than anyone else. I am in no way calling anyone out or expecting an explanation ... there comes a time when all those awkward loose ends must be tied up somewhere, a time when forgiveness is at the forefront of change.
for I am zen
I never expressed the events of a certain breakup in my own words. and with good reason. I know I am above such pointless musing, and feel the past has passed and no use digging up something that was buried long before the deed was done.
what i do feel needs expressing is this:
to those who were "friends" before said event, thank you for your friendship. for those who maintained said friendship, thank you muchly for your continued support and love and knowing when to lend a hand. for those who dropped off the face of the earth, without a word, and went on with their lives, i hope all is well. I wish that you can somehow forgive me for needing space during a trying time and forgive yourselves for not offering a bit of support. I understand, now, how "friendship" works. It works only when it is convenient. and that is a sad truth.
Understand this is coming from a place of quietness and inner reflection, and is more for me than anyone else. I am in no way calling anyone out or expecting an explanation ... there comes a time when all those awkward loose ends must be tied up somewhere, a time when forgiveness is at the forefront of change.
for I am zen