when does it get better than this?
things make sense these days. I haven't felt this overjoyed at simply being alive in years. Things go wrong, they get progressivly better or worse until something is done about them. Needless to say, I had forgotten how simple life could be. At the Stood Up Shot Down show last night, I realized how much music really, is my life. They were phenomenal, and Jimmie got to strip, so he was happy. It seems as if things are breaking off as much as they are falling back together. couples are splitting up, getting back together, it's strange. The show last night also helped me with the fact that yes I am, in fact, single. and I am, in fact, happy with that. As much as I can sit and blame my mistakes with the male species on them "not wanting a relationship", the idea of a boyfriend right now sends me packing for siberia. I'm just having fun. Patrick is in town from NAU and I went to see him last night after the show because I had too many margaritas and passed out the pervious night with friends. that was fantastic too see him. Mom's out of the country, so Im having my favorite people over. ie: Troy, Dave, Ashlye, Ryann, Jimmie, Patrick, Lexi, Ty, Aaron, Preston, blahhh that whole group. It's truly a wonderful feeling. well actually, Ashlye and I are hanging out after work, so we'll see if I even make it home to have them over.
Yesterday I woke up at 8am to Debra texting me asking me to take her to work, so I dragged my butt out of a bed and did so. Then I spent the entire day cleaning my room. God, it was disgusting. Now It smells just like it did when I had just put all my IKEA furniture together, absolutely WONDERFUL. I also gathered the pictures that bring a smile to my face and converted them to black and white, then proceeded to print them out and place them abstractly on my black wall. My white wall has all pictures of the beach, all color pictures. I basically feel beautiful just being in this room. I have a lot of work to do, but I am prepared. Ryann and I went to the show, met up with Ashlye & Devin (who are so fucking cute together, I love it) Scott, Shayla, Deb, Jen, Adam, Kay etc etc. I also found out that after ITS state for theatre next week, Lindsay and I have Traffic Survival School together next sunday morning at 7:30 am. thank god. I would die being in that class alone. After, we went and saw Patrick, and then hit up Denny's because we hadn't eaten all day. Then it was movie time with Lexi n Ryann, Ryann had to be home, so Lexi and I passed out. sweet.
I think I could lay here all day in a wonderland. I have to work at 4. but its fine because Jimmie n Kassy will be there. Kassy may be joining us tonight as well. I heard that some people I absolutely despise were planning on coming over, so I pretty much cant wait to tell them to go the fuck away. As awful as that is, I have some anger in me somewhere, I think.
I actually decided the other day to follow through with the idea of "a life lived in anger is a life wasted." which is extremely true. there is no point in being angry at things I can't and never will be able to change. If I let go, let it be what it was, and eventually forget, things will be ok. It's like saying "when you're upset, the world doesn't stop, it just keeps turning, with or without you." That's where music comes in. No matter what mood, what catastrophic event has tilted the earth of it's axis, you have to take it for what it is, and move on. It was so funny last night at the show with Jen Hilderbrandt, this girl walked in that we dont like, and in unison we screamed. and then we were fine,we just needed to be pissed for a second. Its amazing how many people dont like certain people. I dont dare write names on LiveJournal because that's asking for dramatics.
well, I have successfully lost my train of thought, and need to take a shower to try to get "I LOVE SUSD" and "I LOVE JAYLEN JIMMIE AND CHRIS" off my arm, thanks to my lovely friends who wrote it. Today is going to ROCK.