b3autiful myst3ry...
Ive been thinking so much. And Ive basically started a new page in the story of my life. Im finally realizing how much more things need to be affecting me as well as my learning from them. I realize how much i let people walk all over me and I let them ruin me. But I see now how things are going to be different. Im finally free of things and people that were holding me down, trying to keep me the way they knew me. Im sorry but those people never treated me all that well. :gasp: ha I know, no suprise. I realized tonight, I love Jayme so much. He makes me so happy. I realized tonight how much Ive needed to be genuinely happy without a catch somewhere in there. Im over my screw ups and onto a new horizon. I really miss some people like Tommy Zach Evan Nicole and a lot of others. Every girl has a story of her first love, and the summer when it all began... welcome to my story, and my summer. I feel so good finally not caring what certain people say anymore, I laugh it off and realize that they dont control my life, what a revalation. Im coming into my own as a woman. I finally look in the mirror and dont see that naive little girl anymore. Ive opened my heart to all emotions once again. ive also started listening to my old music again. Trapt is playing in my house just about 24 hours a day. YES. I cant wait to see how far this goes.
Today I saw The Notebook with my baby. It was such an amazing movie... Jayme really liked it too! i was psyched! I payed this morning cuz I was taking him to a total chick flick. i cried my eyes out. We went out to eat and then spent the rest of the day before he went to work together. Then at 7:40 I went and saw A Cinderella Story with Bethany. Cried in that one too. I got home around 10:30 and I was really upset about some stuff. I ended up talking to my baby and then he called and we talked for an hour or so, it was so nice. he gets his wisdom teeth out tomorrow and I do believe i have a lunch date with my dear friend Zach. Im takin him out to lunch because he wouldnt let me pay on our last encounter (read previous entry) damn what am I doing up? bed here I come. oh i also have a very attractive cough and very much have an almost cold. my interview at the hospital is Wednesday... we'll see.
Today I saw The Notebook with my baby. It was such an amazing movie... Jayme really liked it too! i was psyched! I payed this morning cuz I was taking him to a total chick flick. i cried my eyes out. We went out to eat and then spent the rest of the day before he went to work together. Then at 7:40 I went and saw A Cinderella Story with Bethany. Cried in that one too. I got home around 10:30 and I was really upset about some stuff. I ended up talking to my baby and then he called and we talked for an hour or so, it was so nice. he gets his wisdom teeth out tomorrow and I do believe i have a lunch date with my dear friend Zach. Im takin him out to lunch because he wouldnt let me pay on our last encounter (read previous entry) damn what am I doing up? bed here I come. oh i also have a very attractive cough and very much have an almost cold. my interview at the hospital is Wednesday... we'll see.