we do it for the peace of mind
we don't speak because we like the sound of our own voices. we speak in hopes of someone listening, understanding, and caring. not in the hopes of a rebuttle to spark and arguement. we do things for the peace of mind, not for the result, not for the regrets in the morning. we do it for the love we can't find and the relationships we wish we had. we live by a schedule. maybe we're better off. we are the future. and with the mystery of the future comes the fear. the fear that drives us to stay children as long as we can. the fear that drives us to alcohol, drugs, suicide. fear that makes us feel alone. but we arent alone. so we speak, in hopes of someone being interested. or we don't speak in hopes of someone getting "the message" that we arent interested. but it took us enough courage to be that person, getting up everyday and trying, hoping for the best. we dont get up in the morning hoping for the apocolypse. we dont hope for death everytime we get in the car. we wake up with a smile on our face because we had the privilege of waking up in the morning. And we get in the car, glad that we aren't stuck walking in this desert heat. we rejoice at every escape. not because we dont appreciate our surroundings, but just because a break from the schedule is always welcomed. we sit on the beach and dig our toes into the sand, in that moment, knowing that life will go on. knowing that our heart wont always be broken, and that someday we'll love again. or maybe someday we won't, but either option, life goes on. we stare out at the vast horizon and realize how minor a role we play in this day, and yet how big an impact we have. just how important we are to the higher powers orchestrating this harmony of life. we find the little things to be happy about, the stupidest things to laugh at, and the most ridiculous ideas to get excited about. we dance in the rain, we kiss people we dont even know. we sit out on our back porch chain smoking, watching the sun rise and discussing theories on life. these are the days we life for. these are the moments that make and break our every thought. while we cry we know tomorrow will be better. while we laugh, we know it couldn't get any better. while we love, we know it wont happen again. we take every moment, breathe it in, live it, and we do it for the peace of mind.