“I’m happy. I’ve just got low self-esteem”

[shnookem]

Is this possible? This is the problem. This is the conflict. My happiness is based on my appearance…well not so much based on it, but it is DEPENDANT on it. I realized this today…tonight. This pimple, which I have attacked and is now a disgusting I don’t know what…it has made me depressed all day. It is all I can think about. It is driving me

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[shnookem]

ohh tamsin...your comment almost made me cry. you are such a smart girl...the mother daughter relkationship is always so complicated. i guess what i am scared of is that i am ruining my relationship with her, beyond repair. i know deep down that that isnt true, that she will always love me and take me in her arms no matter WHAT i do, but i just feel like such a bad daughter...i just can't open up to her about my e/d, cant open up to her about my boyfriend...

"It's hard when your own judgement is different from that of your mum's because you never want to hurt them"
---> i know....i used to always think my mum was right about everyhing. well not necessarily RIGHT, but that her views were sort of insightful...and i would often go against her views or wishes, but when i did i would always view this as ME doing the wrong thing knowingly... but now, there are so many things where we just so blatently have different views about. like she struggles to understand my e/d / accept my relationship with my boyfriend...the 2 cornerstones of my life.so its hard. i hope you are well, thannks for your words sweety. xxxx